I have indeed grown up. No more getting upset over inconsequential matters like this one.

phew. thought this day was gonna evade me forever. 

看着他们这么兴奋的准备演出，突然想起了1年前的我。

梦想很多，梦可以做的很美，因为有老师和学长和朋友蔽护。

现在不一样了。现在凡事都要亲历亲维，成功了也不太懂要和谁分享。

这种感觉你有过吗？找来找去，肯听的人多，可是懂的人也真的只有那么几个。

最近电话发神经，乱拨电给蓝老师。

我就是在这个时候想到的，想到我们曾经那么年少轻狂，那么不顾一切，那么奋不顾身，那么那么多。

现在。。。。 

so afraid.

so, so afraid at how everything might end up. i don't want to put in so much time and effort and end up with nothing.

i've had this feeling too many times now.