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GAAH.
I dunno if I should type it here but heck.
I honestly don't know what to say anymore.
6 years of playing and we've never managed to win the title for coach.
It's something that I reallyreally used to want.
But I don't know how we're gonna do it.
There's less than 3 weeks to season and the only thing I'd want to do after every training is to cry.
I just hope that it'll be over soon.
And stop telling me not to stress out.
I can't.
I don't know how.
How am I supposed to do it when everyone's playing even worse than usual.
Yea ok fine. It's really fine if you want to sit down and talk during water breaks you know =D
You guys can sit there for the rest of training.
Simple flyballs.
Sprint for it.
Oh you were sprinting? I thought you were jogging.
Grounders.
If the ball is already in the glove, I don't see why you can drop it all the time.
Once or twice, ok fine, we make mistakes.
But all the time?
THROWS.
How many times do you want me to tell you not to overthrow?
Tell me if your arm is hurting. Then just DON'T throw.
If you want to sidethrow? It's okay, make sure you do it properly and don't give me a shit throw 9 out of 10 times.
I feel like a voice record on repeat mode. Repeating all these over and over again.
And in the end nothing is really changing.
Attitudes.
I don't know if you honestly take season seriously.
You are already missing so many trainings and you still come late all the damn time.
And ok fine you tell me you're injured.
At least show me that you WANT to train.
And I'm sorry.
I can't play as well as I used to play.
I'm sorry I keep making all sorts of mistakes.
I'm sick of trying to play as well as I can, just so that you would at least try to play better as well.
You know what, I don't really want to care anymore.
Season please be over soon.
I think I should stop complaining about softball -_-
And.
I know you don't really care about what happens to me.
If you want to know something, don't talk in roundabouts.
I can tell y'know.
Have more guts and ask.
I used to feel so worthless. So you talk to me only because you need something?
It's okay, you don't have to justify what you're doing.
I don't look it but I'm just sensitive by nature.
It feels that way to me so I'm not gonna bother anymore.
It's not really my business and I don't see the point in wasting my time on people who only serve to trample on my selfworth.
Do whatever you please,
Just stop hurting my friends.
I dunno if I should type it here but heck.
I honestly don't know what to say anymore.
6 years of playing and we've never managed to win the title for coach.
It's something that I reallyreally used to want.
But I don't know how we're gonna do it.
There's less than 3 weeks to season and the only thing I'd want to do after every training is to cry.
I just hope that it'll be over soon.
And stop telling me not to stress out.
I can't.
I don't know how.
How am I supposed to do it when everyone's playing even worse than usual.
Yea ok fine. It's really fine if you want to sit down and talk during water breaks you know =D
You guys can sit there for the rest of training.
Simple flyballs.
Sprint for it.
Oh you were sprinting? I thought you were jogging.
Grounders.
If the ball is already in the glove, I don't see why you can drop it all the time.
Once or twice, ok fine, we make mistakes.
But all the time?
THROWS.
How many times do you want me to tell you not to overthrow?
Tell me if your arm is hurting. Then just DON'T throw.
If you want to sidethrow? It's okay, make sure you do it properly and don't give me a shit throw 9 out of 10 times.
I feel like a voice record on repeat mode. Repeating all these over and over again.
And in the end nothing is really changing.
Attitudes.
I don't know if you honestly take season seriously.
You are already missing so many trainings and you still come late all the damn time.
And ok fine you tell me you're injured.
At least show me that you WANT to train.
And I'm sorry.
I can't play as well as I used to play.
I'm sorry I keep making all sorts of mistakes.
I'm sick of trying to play as well as I can, just so that you would at least try to play better as well.
You know what, I don't really want to care anymore.
Season please be over soon.
I think I should stop complaining about softball -_-
And.
I know you don't really care about what happens to me.
If you want to know something, don't talk in roundabouts.
I can tell y'know.
Have more guts and ask.
I used to feel so worthless. So you talk to me only because you need something?
It's okay, you don't have to justify what you're doing.
I don't look it but I'm just sensitive by nature.
It feels that way to me so I'm not gonna bother anymore.
It's not really my business and I don't see the point in wasting my time on people who only serve to trample on my selfworth.
Do whatever you please,
Just stop hurting my friends.