anytime im ready to do something for myself, something shitty happens to me.

annoying.

good thing i have a girlfriend that i love a ton and loves me back.
good thing this venue is getting put together.

so stressed and nervous. i wish people werent so shitty. i wish people would back up what they say. i wish people would follow through on promises made. i wish this venue would be done and ready to go. i wish i could do all the work that is needed.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckin fuck fuck fuck fuck fucker fuck fucking shit fuck you.

like my new song? deep meaningful lyrics right?

hahaha.

i cant explain how much you mean to me in words. maybe if we counted up every blade of grass on the earth it MIGHT add up to the number of years i want to love you and be with you. i hate upsetting you. whenever you are upset, i get 10 times more upset because i know i did something to fuck up.

i love you so so much.

rock n roll.

rain fest starts today. oh geez im anxious, nervous, STOKED!

since the flood is my new favorite band. finally seeing them last night after waiting for close to 4 years was almost worth it. one of the best sets ive ever witnessed. so much energy. pumped me up so much. wow. super chill dudes too. awesome.

happy birthday me.

rain fest in 1 week. oh geez.

LOST IS INSANE!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK LAST NIGHTS EPISODE WAS KU;AKGF'ASDFG.LA;FGL;KJDNFA.

balls. i dont want to wait for next week.

being sick is tight. good thing i have someone to take care of me.

worst headache of my life. this blows.

hate is in my heart, its good. maybe hate isnt the right word....maybe its just that i dont give a shit about about 95% of humanity. why waste time worrying/mourning over people that had no affect on your life? mourn and care for the people that are part of your life. fuck everyone else.