Just ignore
I want to shout, scream and run away.
I don't know what to do anymore. I try to breath, but I can't get enough air. I try to think and my brain is about to explode. There is just too much things. Way too much. Help?
I don't know where to start. Perhaps. I can't take anymore of that stupid school. I have been fighting with myself to get myself to study. Can't bother anymore. Ever since the first day in that school I knew I wouldn't ever do work related to the profession I'm studying. But with will I have been studying information I will never ever need in my life ever again. It doesn't seem to be important anymore. There is too much of everything. I want to consentrade on something that actually intrests me. I can't go there anymore if don't have reason to study the career. Its driving me insane. I just can't act anymore, not to act someone who I'm not. The school doesn't intrest me one bit. And there are a lot of thing that I would have to do for tomorrow and I just can't be bothered. I don't care anymore if I don't pass some courses. I don't care what the teachers think. I don't have any reason to continue in that school anymore. But mother, I just can't tell her that no, I don't wanna go there. She will point out that there ain't left that much anymore, just one and half year. Yeah one and half year. That is long time.
I also wanna get the hell out of the places I know this well. I wanna move to my own flat and live my own life. I wanna take care of myself. I'm not taiking care myslf right now. I have been reading my friends blogs and crying.
Friends. I never get to see them anymore. It's just at con's that I see them. Never just to talk and to hang out just with them. I get tired of the people I don't know at these happenings that are with us. With friends I wanna to get know again. Friends I miss like crazy right now. I would like to talk, lauhg and dink with them. Get together with them. I miss them so much right now. I have been just a great friend, because I haven't gotten touch with them and currently I'm crying after them. I don't wanna loose the friends I once had. The closest to friends I ever had. The group of wonderful personalities that I thought that I could live without. Once you get attached to them, you don't wanna loose them. You don't wanna loose the friendship.
And my mood is showing in my writing too. No-one can tell it, because I haven't shown my writing yet. I'm intend to do that tomorrow. I have time, I have loads of time to spend.
I don't know what to do anymore. I try to breath, but I can't get enough air. I try to think and my brain is about to explode. There is just too much things. Way too much. Help?
I don't know where to start. Perhaps. I can't take anymore of that stupid school. I have been fighting with myself to get myself to study. Can't bother anymore. Ever since the first day in that school I knew I wouldn't ever do work related to the profession I'm studying. But with will I have been studying information I will never ever need in my life ever again. It doesn't seem to be important anymore. There is too much of everything. I want to consentrade on something that actually intrests me. I can't go there anymore if don't have reason to study the career. Its driving me insane. I just can't act anymore, not to act someone who I'm not. The school doesn't intrest me one bit. And there are a lot of thing that I would have to do for tomorrow and I just can't be bothered. I don't care anymore if I don't pass some courses. I don't care what the teachers think. I don't have any reason to continue in that school anymore. But mother, I just can't tell her that no, I don't wanna go there. She will point out that there ain't left that much anymore, just one and half year. Yeah one and half year. That is long time.
I also wanna get the hell out of the places I know this well. I wanna move to my own flat and live my own life. I wanna take care of myself. I'm not taiking care myslf right now. I have been reading my friends blogs and crying.
Friends. I never get to see them anymore. It's just at con's that I see them. Never just to talk and to hang out just with them. I get tired of the people I don't know at these happenings that are with us. With friends I wanna to get know again. Friends I miss like crazy right now. I would like to talk, lauhg and dink with them. Get together with them. I miss them so much right now. I have been just a great friend, because I haven't gotten touch with them and currently I'm crying after them. I don't wanna loose the friends I once had. The closest to friends I ever had. The group of wonderful personalities that I thought that I could live without. Once you get attached to them, you don't wanna loose them. You don't wanna loose the friendship.
And my mood is showing in my writing too. No-one can tell it, because I haven't shown my writing yet. I'm intend to do that tomorrow. I have time, I have loads of time to spend.