this has been the best year of my life hands down
thank you to everyone who has effected me(negative or positive)
you have turned me into the person i am

Alive!
I'm staying alive.
Kicking and screaming,
But boiling and streaming,
Staying alive.

doo doot doo doot doo doot doo doot
doo doot doo doot doo doot doo doot
the worst is over

to love is to forgive

things that are good:
evan ross ryan farrar billy anania and brian salvatore
friday
applebees after nine o clock
panic! at the disco
friday
my fan
friday
hanging out with my dad all day tomorrow
friday
my new worry free approach to life
my best friend, already mentioned abover
mtv
friday
friday
friday

things that are bad
nothing

i love zakk.

at this very moment
life is very very very very very good

ive always associated love with fear. fear of loss, fear of change, fear of the future. i always know at some point it will end, and die. I hold onto things for too long, i never forget and I always miss. My moods change so rapidly, and i never seem to trust anyone else's won't. Gab cares about me more the anyone in the world, but for some ( Read more... )

this is all absolutely ridiculous
and its even more ridiculous that all of this has to happen on a fucking website.
i just want to say ive never been as hurt and frustrated as i am right now
this is the worst feeling imaginable
and im sick of all of this
and we are all equally to blame for whatever is to come of this

this is all absolutely ridiculous
and its even more ridiculous that all of this has to happen on a fucking website.
i just want to say ive never been as hurt and frustrated as i am right now
this is the worst feeling imaginable
and im sick of all of this

im a mess right now
i should be asleep
i hope bam's on