And if I can't stop it you'll get sick of bearing crosses ( Read more... )

there's a lot of built up fear rigt now
but today made me realize
if i keep saying im gonna be ok
and surrounding myself with hapiness
i'm actually going to be ok
the past is nothing right now
i cant even believe i just said that
and for once i actually believe it

Now I'm trying to be assertive,
I'm making plans,
want to rise to the occasion,
yeah, meet all their demands

for the first time im looking to the future with happiness
its an amazing feeling
i feel likei k now how i want the next year of my life to be
this weekend was enjoyable
goodbye

my therapist said something good to me today
"the only right is on your hand and its opposite is left not wrong."
it helps

today was so needed
except for like 30 minutes
being able to sit in my cabana with phoebe g seth george kristi and jill was just amazing
i had dinner with jack tonight at like 11
i realized how un needed everything is
i just cant turn my back on everyone
theres no way i can even phathom it

theres no way to sum up the last two days
im laying on my bed absolutely speechless right now

great day
great great day
and i plan on this weekend being lovely
and involving a lot of bros and 30s,
and beaches

summer<3

nothing is perfect, but it has to be someday

i sat up for a bit this morning in evans living room
with a blanket over my face just reflecting on life.
and ive realized how absolutely content i am with everything

I've got all my friends here
They haven't been talking as of lately.
They've all found new bro's and babies.

may 12th was one of the better days in my life
dont ask why
i had a smile on my face the entire time though and thats all that matters
love lyfe 07