I'm on the verge of tears, sitting at my desk at work, and I'm not even sure why

[zanfur]

I've been inordinately stressed recently.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. It's the first time I've had a checkup in at least 7 years.

It really distresses me when I can't think clearly.

I have a strong urge to just crawl into some hole somewhere and just ... be.

No more people. People are scary. They hurt me.

Double-faced bastards.

Comments

[ariata]

I have a strong urge to just crawl into some hole somewhere and just ... be.

I used to feel that way a lot growing up... it had a lot to do with Marge and tensions that were in the house a lot. Going off and living like Thoreau, in the woods, always held a great deal of appeal for me. (I learned later what a hypocrite he was, so perhaps not quite like him :) .)

[guenievre]

It really distresses me when I can't think clearly.

I find that when I can't rely on my mind to use logic and have a clear view of the situation, I tend to become rather terrified of life in general. Ironically, the heavy emotional response I tend to have in that situation further occludes my ability to think, and if I'm not careful, I'll be caught in a downward spiral that makes me want to hide from the world. The best solution I've yet discovered is to postpone attempts at complex thought until my emotions have run their course... I always feel as though I've given up when I do this, but it's better than digging myself into a deeper hole.

No more people. People are scary. They hurt me.

Finding people who aren't frightening or hurtful is, in my experience, one of the most difficult challenges life presents.

[excelsius]

*hugs softly*

[goldfish42]

Hello. I'm not sure if you're still avoiding people or not. (I understand; I do that sometimes, too.) But I wanted to see if you got my e-mail. I sent it to the address in your LJ profile, and I don't know if you actually check that account or not.

Hope your week is going better now!