if nothings wrong why do i feel so defeated?

driving while extremely tired is not a good idea. I was really scared I wasn't gonna make it home. the combination of jolt, ciggarettes, and McDonalds made me feel sick as all get out ( Read more... )

fucking awesome. totaly worth the trip, and I almost died on the way home.

Stolen from Emily ( Read more... )

this is very much so a make or break month. my bank account is about drained, and with rent and utilities due up any time now...I dunno what I'm gonna do. At what point do I turn back to my parents and break down and say I can't do it? I'm not just afraid of not being able to do it, but I don't want to have to turn back to my parents, plus it'll ( Read more... )

ohhhh what a weekend. Was supposed to just be a quick visit and have emily come stay down here for a day. well my car had a different idea. this idea involved dying. the sensor between the transmission and the fuel pump. not cheap. $500 not cheap. but the rents payed for it. on top of that I needed new tires, and my front end needs to be re-aligned ( Read more... )

i have not been this upset in a very long time. such a mixture of fear, anger, and depression. a feeling of sheer defeat that I ( Read more... )

is it just me, or do i only write in this when shitty things happen? i kicked my keyboard this morning, realized i had fallen asleep while talking to emily online, my lip sealed up no more piercing...just owch. oh and i crushed my fucking glasses. I get to school after driving blind...oh no wallet or cell phone or food. sweet. so basically my day ( Read more... )

ok so maybe today doesn't suck so much now that I'm awake and I have cereal. I went to the meeting and it was fine, looks like it's gonna be a fun job. I met all the people in my department and they seem nice. I was supposed to play paintball but I think I'd rather sleep all day. Also I got to see some of the uppers get dunked in a dunk tank, and ( Read more... )

well I'm fucked. I can't find my birth certificate or my SS card. Part of my weekend mission was to go up to MI and find them, but my mom is the one who files everything away, and she's off on a trip. I thought I may have had it here, but I was mistaken. I've got to be at work in an hour and I don't know what to do. I can't lose this job. I hope I ( Read more... )