well I've been working on tattoo designs, and people seem to like them, which I'm quite flattered by. www.iwannabesquid.deviantart.com blah...not much else to post, other than I feel loved. woot.

so it's about 9 am right now I've been up for a half hour but I was in the shower. Here's the voicemail I woke up to ( Read more... )

so I'm a homewrecker now. I really didn't want to be that guy and I'm not proud of myself. On the other hand; I don't really regret it. I do genuinely care about her, and I know she feels the same about me. Also, her bf treats her like shit, a drunk verbally abusive guy, but still. It's no excuse, I'm supposed to be the sensible one who doesn't ( Read more... )

So it's been a while since I've updated, but I have been computerless for quite some time. so here goes ( Read more... )

got back from IN last night, it was nice, finding an Apartment and a Job are turning out to be much much harder than I thought and I kinda got overwhelmed at one point. I guess it sorta hit me when I was lost driving around in Ft. Wayne, Im really lost in life. I have limited friends, I'm working my ass off, I'm not ready for the move in any sense ( Read more... )

yes, Haelo, you did tell me. I let my emotions once again get the best of me. I am a real jack ass with things like that, stubborn. fuck with fire you get burnt, rub the ashes in your eyes you go blind. back to focussing on paintball and getting the fuck out of here.

wow, you don't know me, and I fell for you again and once again...I get fucked. I'm left feeling like shit and you can go off and live whatever fucking life you want. I'm done.

day starts off at arriving at the field at about 1, it's a heafty 85 degrees out high humidity. My younger brother and I register with out own equipment ($30) I planned on using the A5 with my nitro tank. go to get my nitro tank filled ($4)...the kid blew out my fill nipple...alright well I've got a few spare tanks with me, so I grab a 9 oz, 20 ( Read more... )

I kinda wish I could have a normal summer. I got to hng out with Jemily and Frank and zoe. sadly, I had to leave after we got slurpees and we rode around on the bike with the banana suit...after which I had to leave. I have wok in the mornin. I work 8 day a week. dizzamn. I feel bad for having to bail out on them...but I'm a workin man havin to ( Read more... )

I hate you. Fuck off. Why do you fucking do this? When will you fucking learn? let it burn, let it all burn, let the ashes blow away. The wound is gone but the scar still surges, so fuck this. Cut deep, let the poison out. Say goodbye ( Read more... )