i feel really empty. i feel like there's no muscle in my body. getting up is hard. getting anywhere else is damn near impossible. i'm being really exquisitly useless lately but i don't know how to fix it. i don't know how this happened. i even made some good decisions and felt good when i went to bed last night and just got up even worse. i don't ( Read more... )

I can feel fine for one minute then be shaking the next.

I don't know what to do. where to go. I don't know how to let people help me, I realized.

If you know a good psych/therapist/whatever in the Suffolk area, alert me. Mine isn't working out. Talking about it doesn't do a damn thing, rather, recollecting things simply makes it worse.

what an awful day ( Read more... )

WHAT'RE THE ODDS?!


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Sorry, I don't need to feel guilty that everybody out here sees Tim less than me. I see him BARELY as is, and BARELY more than the rest of you, so fuck that guilt trip. I've only held him back if we had pre-existing significant plans, already started drinking and won't drive, or had a physical reason not to go (deathly headache, whatever ( Read more... )

Feb 18th, 9pm, Fin's Pub, Oakdale.
Karaoke, darts, general mayhem.
Comment here if you need directions or definitely plan to come.
It's my birthday party.

So...
If I go to suffolk for 2.5 years I can attain a Nursing degree FOR FREE, take the RPN and have a secure future. If I feel like going back to Bing afterwords I can finish the writing degree.
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why am i having trouble making what is obviously the right decision?

When you date somebody for a long time with issues, when you know they have problems and are, for however long, a little bit more needy, DON'T FUCKING DISAPPEAR AND COMPLETELY BLOW THEM OFF WORDLESSLY WITH NO WAY TO CONTACT YOU. Asshole. I'm so pissed. I've never had so many heart palpitations in a 12hr span, from anger or whatever else.

I'm gonna fucking kill somebody.

I am motherfucking LIVID.

Guys, here's a tip. Never try to choke your girlfriend with your unrelenting seed. It won't end well ( Read more... )