Supernatural Finale and Fic Recs

[zara_zee]

So. How's everyone doing?

It's Sunday night here in Oz. I watched the SPN series finale late Friday night my time, after I got home from my PM shift.

[Finale Spoilers (click to open)]I started crying at the Barn Scene and kept crying for the rest of the episode and then cried for an hour aftewards, before going to bed at 2.00am. I actually had a crying hangover the next morning

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[borgmama1of5]

What happened to Miracle: https://archiveofourown.org/works/27659039

[zara_zee]

And I'm crying again...

Thank you for reccing that. It was beautiful and very touching.

[killabeez]

Thank youuuuu, omg. I really do not cry easily, but now I am.

[jj1564]

Y'all, I cannot believe how hard I am grieving for a fictional character. Well. Two fictional characters. I'm grieving Dean's death and I'm grieving for Sam's loss.

I feel the same, as I didn't expect Dean to die, I was so shocked! I thought they'd either die or drive off into the sunset together. Seeing Sam wandering through the Bunker and sitting alone in the Impala was so sad - thank goodness he had Miracle with him. But they ended up together, and that hug on the bridge was beautiful, and as much J2 as Sam and Dean.

Thanks for the recs, I haven't read any yet. I was just about to rec Dizzo's but I see you've read that one; it made me cry, too!

[zara_zee]

Oh yikes! I forgot another one...see what all that crying does to you? I am still a complete wreck from that finale!

I had heard a rumour about Dean dying, so I wasn't as shocked as I would've been otherwise, because yep, I had expected them to go together or drive off into the sunset too.

As someone said on twitter, losing these characters that we love so much, this year of all years, when so many are losing people irl...it's really amped up the grief, I think. It's been a hard year for so many.

And I totally agree...the bridge scene...the barn scene...there was a lot of Jared and Jensen in those scenes. Those emotions in the barn were so genuine, so raw...what an incredible performance. It truly broke me. 💔

[amberdreams]

I'd heard two rumours - one that Dean would die and one that Sam would - of the two this one made more sense because if they've killed Sam off, I'm sure Dean would have put a bullet in his own brain, and that would have been so grim, I doubt any of us would have recovered. (Plus the people screaming about what did happen would have been 100x louder).

[jj1564]

I loved that Kripke said his ending would have been much darker, so perhaps Sam dies and Dean kills himself would've been his ending! And whatever happened, some fans were bound to hate it. *sighs*

[killabeez]

Thank you for collecting these! ETA: Here's another one I thought was very sweet: Shooting Stars and Satellites-especially given that so many of us can't be with our families this week.

[zara_zee]

You're welcome! And thank you for your addition to the list. That was lovely. Apparently I'm not going to stop crying any time soon! 😭

[somer]

'But the depth of my emotional response has really surprised me.'

Couldn't have said it better.

[zara_zee]

💔💔💔💔💔💔 [Hugs]

[crowroad3]

I was also totally blindsided by my emotional response, even though I was not surprised by the narrative moves that happened and had tried to kind of ward myself by thinking about those beforehand (e.g. what Dean said his perfect ending would be, the need to go full-circle back to the pilot, the need to give Sam freedom before peace, etc). It did not help!
It was like the story was going to get around whatever salt-circle I tried. <3 <3

[zara_zee]

tried to kind of ward myself by thinking about (the narrative moves) beforehand...it did not help

^^ So much this!!

There was a portion of my brain cataloguing the narrative elements and being quite aware of the deliberate ways my emotional buttons were being pushed, but my emotions responded very genuinely...which I guess says a lot about my love for these characters, as well as the brilliant performances by Jared and Jensen. They put their hearts and souls into That Scene and I think a lot of us responded to how genuine it was. And then we absolutely empathized with Sam and walked his grief with him.

And yep, our intellectual salt circles did not help!! <3 <3

[harrigan]

I am verklempt. In the best way!

Thanks for sharing these fic recs.

[zara_zee]

That is an excellent word choice! (I had to look it up...a Yiddish loan word meaning overcome or choked with emotion.) Very fitting.

And you're welcome for the recs. 💔