musings

[zarabear]

I don't know who I am. There are lots of things that I want to be, but I need to focus on the here and now so that I can identify the steps that need to be made to make me a better me. This is harder than it seems, and very lonely at times. I don't have a sense of self, what I want or where I want to go. I want my family to be happy, but it scares

Comments

[nomercles]

It's all good, sweetie. You are among friends. Even if we don't talk much (mostly because I'm crazy-busy), that doesn't mean I'm not still there for you.

Gnomes

[amalthea_sf]

I gotta say, I think we're all flawed. Some people just hide it better than others.

:)

{In college I had some enlightening and vindicating moments of seeing girls who seemed absolutely perfect show the wrinkles behind their façades. Hopefully if they thought I was the perfect one, they got an earful of my neurosis, depression, and self-doubt. Kinda like the way the Olympic figure skaters/gymnasts are so pretty (and thin!), athletic, and focused, but everybody kinda knows they're messed up from the intense focus, pressure, isolation etc. Which is why I watch ice dancing :P }