fear

[zarine]

this morning on my commute into work i was gripped by an overwhelming sense of fear.
fear of labor, fear of the reponsibility of parenthood, fear that something will go wrong...fear.
so far, i have been unable to shake it.
its unnerving.

Comments

[orejen]

/comfort Wish there was something I could do to help you out. Not sure if I ever went through that one, my pregnancy was too long ago. Except for the whole "single 20 yr old moving back home with her parents" stress, I don't remember having any panic-type attacks.

Hey, saw this in Craigslist. Thought of you: http://nh.craigslist.org/zip/146269946.html

I don't know your size. I always pictured you as petite...guess because of you playing a Gnome, lol.

/hug and if you ever want to talk, email is still AnyastasiaEQ@hotmail.com

[phetalla]

I know it is scary, but you'll do great and be fine!

Natural instincs will kick in once the little one is born. Actually, some of them I think kick in towards the end because you are feeling the little one a lot more, it becomes more real, and you bond a bit more. At least, this has been my personal experience.

You're gonna be a great mom! The fact that you are even concerned about it, tells me you will be good. There are some that never give it a thought or question or fear, I wonder if they aren't giving things much thought. You are thinking it thru and wondering, its all a part of planning and caring-you're doing that now.

[zarine]

thanks both of you
i know what i am going through is probably natural and normal. i also know that every pregnancy is different, so not everyone goes through the same things someone else does.
i do think i will be a good mom. i just hope my learning curve isn't too steep ya know?
right now, i am just rather stuck at the helpless phase. i still get cranky and crampy and sick sometimes, i am just starting to show and yet i still have 5 months to go. so its not time to buy stuff yet and decorate, but at the same time i definately have the urge to prepare...
i am definately pregnant, but i am not close to giving birth yet. i am sure i will long for this feeling when i only have a couple weeks to go and i am suffering under my own belly, but for now, i just wish things seemed to be progressing faster.