Emi-chan!

[zede]

I haven't seen you in almost 5 days... I don't know what to do when I do see you. I wouldn't know how to act, what to say or do... I must admit, I really miss you and I don't know what my malfunction is. I don't know if I still love you. Hell I don't even know if us being "friends" like this is working out

Comments

[oxsmil3ang3lxo]

maybe you should understand how she sees it. you see yourself in the third person point of view but do you see her in her point of view and in the third person point of view? i believe shes a sensitive soul.. so maybe you can see it in a sensitive soul point of view. maybe shes keeping things from you so then she wouldnt make things even worse (for you or her)? things like this are COMPLICATED!!!

[zede]

She's sensitive alright. As much as I would want us to get back together, I'll only hurt both of us even more... This friendship thing isn't working too well on my part too. I can't stop thinking about her. But either way, by the time she goes back to Nagano, I'll miss her a lot and I'll be disfunctional and crap... I don't know how she'll be so I'm trying to somewhat lessen that bond so it wouldn't hurt as much. You can say I'm a coward... I just don't want to get hurt any more than I already am...

decide!!!

[navy_blows]

john, you need to decide what to do... what ever you told me about you and emi with your relationship sounded great what you both had!!! you guys had something from the movies.. something that i wish for but never know if it is going to happen! she is driving you crazy and i am sure you are deeply in love with emi, im sure she loves you too but you both are young and probably scared to make the next move... ( you guys both know what i am talking about) you guys think too much... and john, you keep on talking about emi non-stop!!! what ever you see you always tell me "this reminds me of Emi, that reminds me of emi.." if this continues like this, i mean you both being "friends" than decide finally what the hell you want to do about your friendship with Emi! this of course drives me crazy hearing about emi this and emi that every time we hang out.. john and emi, do what your hearts tell you... stop tormenting each other on the phone... stop teasing each other... just get together and talk about this over again... and decide finally what

Re: decide!!!

[zede]

Well you've definitely proven your point... Knowing him, I guess he's just trying to protect me. He knows how weak I am. I can't help but think what would happen if we were together forever. I'm starting to sound like I'm whining so I'll stop here. Bai bai~~

-Emi-