You think I've stopped counting the days? It's the first place my mind goes when I wake up ( Read more... )

Sigh.
It's 2 a.m.
I'm trying desperately to break my habits. I did I think...for a minute.

oh dear God, Justin had the nerve to contact me and say that we should 'resolve'
Not apologize, no no, more like, 'well I've decided it's ok for us to talk again'
So I told him to fuck off?
Well.
I told him to leave me alone please.
Which is my equivalent to fuck off!

I hope one day I will read back on these entries and slap myself for being so self-involved and stupid ( Read more... )

I stay up until five...at the earliest. I go to sleep, until one, unless there is something I have to get up for. I FORCE myself to get up. I go rigth back to sleep if I get the chance, which I usually do, because I'm by myself, not caring about school, or people. The exhaustion makes me want to cry. I'm so tired. I never thought I would let ( Read more... )

I went out tonight. It was the first time I really wanted to go out, and I had a good time. But, for instance, my roommate is waiting for her boyfriend to text/call because he hasn't all night. And as much as everything this past month has been awful, God, am I relieved to not have to wait for things like that. To have that awful feeling of knowing ( Read more... )

I was in Toronto this weekend. Nice hotel, nice company, nice everything. Went to the basketball game I spent months saving for. It was something great to see, first one I've been to. I had tried to give him the tickets before he walked out the door, but he gave me a hasty 'I can't go out of town' in that 'wow-you're stupid' voice. I remember that ( Read more... )

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Some things ( Read more... )

You don't look like you love her...as much as you loved me.