Do not play me ( Read more... )

I really dont like beer, but when the is the only cold beverage to drink, I figured what the hell. We have this water pitcher/purifier that I filled earlier but forgot to put in the fridge. So just put the purified water in the fridge and the ice machine happens to be broken. I am not very partial to warm water. Thus I choose the beer, it was ( Read more... )

You know I'll never say goodbye
I've got so much left to say.

Yesterday was Tracie's 21st birthday. She had both of her parents and all her friends come to work with her to see us. We sang happy birthday to her, and gave her a giant card, signed by everyone, including the cooks who cant really speak much English. I found myself envious of her, not because everyone loves her or anything. Just because she ( Read more... )

Life is peachy! I wish everything would ever feel this real forever, because I doubt anything could really be this good again. Yet, I know it will get better and at times it will get worse. Things are starting to come together and I can feel some real hope for the first time in two years ( Read more... )

Work, work, work... it is all I seem to do these days. Yet, I don't have enough money for anything. Whenever I seem to earn a decent amount of surplus cash, something pops up and all of the sudden I am left with maybe $77.32 in my bank account. This shit is driving me nuts. I make pretty good money waiting tables, but sometimes I make very ( Read more... )

"What a laugh, though. To think that one human being could ever really know another. You could get used to each other, get so habituated that you could speak their words right along with them, but you never knew why other people said what they said or did what they did, because they never even knew themselves. Nobody understands anybody ( Read more... )

This morning I was awoken at 9:30 am with a telephone call. For the second time in two days, I was harassed into helping my grandma do some stupid shit. The reason I was roused so early, was so that I could help clean up the mess her friends made at the wake she held yesterday. Seriously, suicide is so selfish. (Advisory: I'm just pissed off and ( Read more... )

SHE'LL ALWAYS BE WHAT I CAN'T FIND
SHE'LL ALWAYS BE WHERE I BREAK DOWN
SHE'LL ALWAYS HIDE BEHIND A STAR
I'LL ALWAYS DREAM SHE CAN'T BE FAR

AND I WON'T LET HER DOWN
MY SOUL IS CELESTIAL-BOUND
AND IF I'M NEVER FOUND
SHE'LL ALWAYS BE

Everything that used to be important, that doesnt matter so much anymore. Everyone that once I called a friend, they arent anywhere to be found. I am really am quite different than I used to be. I am me. I act my age, most of the time, and I am thinking beyond tomorrow. Unfortunately, remnants of my past still stand between myself and ( Read more... )