fuck this fucking day.

odd. this week i have been getting up earlyish. not really feeling like drinking. though i have all sorts of alcohol with me. not smoking very much and eating pretty well.
it all feels strangely comforting....

seriously thinking of moving to portland. maybe soon.

oh man crazy two weeks. whole schedule change at work. working sushi bar full time now. watching tons of movies. hanging out with shelby lots. ghost busting. change the tire on my car but forget to put the ebreak on and it almost rolls down the hill. new ipod = broken so i sent it away. quit smoking. cut wayyy down on my drinking.

the wine tastes all right. perfect because i cant remember another accomplished evening. suppressing memories. still far too tender. holding my head in a gallon sized bottle. and its nice. i was getting tired of pretending to be sober ( Read more... )

well i got a job cooking japanese food.
i also might have a job at a cool hippie sandwich store.
maybe i'll have two jobs. that will keep me busy

i cant stand on my own....
i need help.
i need support.

i really like ashland. it is really beautiful.
but, i am worried about finding a job.

moving to ashland this week.

so i found a dehydrator deal in a shed at my aunts house.
now i'm going wild.
i looooove banana chips