I think sleeping is not as overrated as I was previously thinking. It helps to relax and think more clearly.

Why am I so angry? Why do I want to just give up and run? Why am I getting so bothered? I am so stressed all of a sudden. Why do I want to run screaming? I know I have found someone who is good to me and for me. But why so much angst right now? I just don't know if it is me feeling insecure. Or if I feel he wants to run or if I do. What the hell is ( Read more... )

I have fallen totally in love! The euphoric feeling is great. And holding him all night feeling his hard body, wow I am intoxicated by this man. Hearing him say "I love you" makes me quake. I can not imagine what life is like with out him. But to love so fast is a quandary. Can it last? When it goes so quickly? He says there will be a plateau but ( Read more... )

So I guess that I am in the middle of a PCOS stress out! Why I go through this I don't know. Everything makes me stress even my wonderful boyfriend. And I should not let him. Or should I say I should not stress over him. Its all on my side and I know that. My job is stressing me and I keep saying that I will not work on Saturday anymore. But alas ( Read more... )

Falling for someone is an amazing experience or at least can be with the right person! It is odd how I have gone through the past year dating one jackass to the next. Having a small expectation hoping that something would turn into at least a possibility then having everything just die. All for the best I know now but how is it that something that ( Read more... )

So I had my first DTR today. DTR=Define The Relationship. At the first thought it was exciting and new. Granted I truly enjoy the person I was having this with. But as the time came closer and he was on his way I started to fear. Now why would that be? I know that if he is wanting or shall I say willing then its not like anything horrible would ( Read more... )

zen_goddess's LJ stalker is londoniscalling!londoniscalling is stalking you because they have you confused with someone else whom they love. They are also in jail for murder!

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This morning I sat with a new friend and had coffee by a creek. Good conversation. It is nice just to take some time out of thinking of life bound questions and just learn about someone new. I am meeting all kinds of new people and enjoying previouse friends. I might be moving which scares the hell out of me! I own too much shit!! I feel often that ( Read more... )

Thinking about life is one of the most energizing and depressing things to do. And now at this time yesterday was the three year aneverirey of my brothers death. What loss has cut through my life. I am glad for the good times and they make me stronger for the hard times. I miss my brother and love him.

What do you do? How do you know? What do you have to lose? Just fight for it if you think its worth it! Statments and questions abound in my mind. Why are interpersonal relationships so difficult to understand. Why can't people just openly share feelings? Oh FUCK it! Life is an incomprehesable challenge that you never know how it will work out ( Read more... )