Does anyone really read these anymore? I miss the days when we were all connected by our blog community and we'd read the news of each others daily lives and comment, I guess facebook killed it, forshame. I tried notes on there, but no one really checks those out because they're "notes" not a blog. Hmm, sad.

I kind of feel like I've failed. Jessie and I broke up for good this time. Then again, I didn't fail. He just can't give me what I need, it's that simple, we're on two different life paths. He wants to work in a travelling circus and bring his fire poi to the world, I want a normal life with a husband and children in the coming years. He's " ( Read more... )

I take quite a bit of time before posting in here, but I'm guessing no one really reads this so I'll just use it to vent anyhow ( Read more... )

It's days like these, or most days lately that I feel immensely blessed with the life I have. More over, blessed to have Jessie in that life. I'm happy, content even, I just can't begin to fathom it. This feels like I've attained this ultimate goal that I was reaching for since I started being interested in boys. It's not perfect, but it's ( Read more... )

So, I never really knew how the failing economy was affecting me, until today. I went into work around 7am, around 9:30 one of the other csr's e-mailed the girl next to me saying "We're closing down", we popped up over our cubicles and asked if she was kidding and when, she said no, and immediately. Around 9:45, the supervisors asked us to get ( Read more... )

That's exactly what I need to do. I went and looked back at my xanga over the past 3 years or so. I don't know why I do that to myself, while at the time, I was happy, looking back on it gets me a little depressed and then I forget how lucky I am to be where I am right now. I think it's mixed with finding things from Jessie's past that were ( Read more... )

I bought the five love languages this weekend after suggestions from two friends that don't know each other (Sierra and Justin) and then as I went to the front to purchase it, the cashier even said "Ooooh, I've heard that book is really good." It wasn't in that insincere way, obviously because I was already buying the book, there was no need to ( Read more... )

So it wasn't so much an abscessed tooth as it was an infection under the root of the tooth. The night of my last entry I was in so much pain I called the emergency hot line around 7:25 or so, got the dentist, was in tears and he told me to come in right away and they'd start the root canal. He also put me on codeine and amoxicillin, which did ( Read more... )

So I'm not too sure, but the dentist seems to think I may have an abscess, he saw my teeth on Monday, how do you miss that? I don't really know what an abscessed tooth is, but I imagine you can tell by looking at it. I've been dealing with pain from this tooth on and off for a few months, it just got work this week, usually it'll last a day or ( Read more... )

So, the past two weeks have been a bit hectic. The last trip to the hospital was ok, I'm a little wary about the one nurse, but it'll be ok. The bad news, the study has been postponed because I need 12 months of endocrinology care before being allowed into the study, they had to wait two visits to tell me this. The good news is that they're ( Read more... )