this of course being life. the one word that is overly used by far too many people, and that is enjoyed by far less many. i just expect too much from myself and from life i guess. i want everyday to be a holiday and i know thats not gonna happen. im still lonely as all hell but that will change in time, if i lose this damn weight i think ill ( Read more... )

okay ima say it again, I CANT STOP FALLING IN LOVE. and truthfully since im so analytical i know its for all the wrong reasons. maybe i havent fully matured yet, in my dreams my love has so much substance and its not about initial attraction. that of course being being attracted to somebody based on looks. im very upset at myself for this problem, ( Read more... )

call me a girl but i love this one song by Vanessa Carlton "White Houses". the way she writes about her experiences is very powerful to me. sadly for me however, a writer/musician, i dont have too many experiences to write about. i rely on my dreams and what i see in movies. i think im in love with Vanessa now :P, i watch that damn video too much ( Read more... )

am i an angry person?...sometimes lol. i know my moods alter witht the music i listen to. today i was outside playing guitar and had my dog out there with me. i was in the garage pickin away at "Stacys Mom" by The Fountains of Wayne, when all of a sudden Henry (my dog) starts barking. i rush out of the garage to see whats up, and this guy is ( Read more... )

since my "intro" post here ive done quite a bit. got drunk, got in a few big arguments, and been depressed. as well as have been happy as well but more recently ive been pretty sad. im going through yet again another confusion stage. where im looking at my life and other people that are close to me, and not feeling adequate. i know that ur not ( Read more... )

after some time my friend has finally convinced me to make a page here, not shure whos going to read it though. lookie its 3:23 am thats my birthday :). anyways ive just been working and playing games and guitar, works gonna be rough the next week cause my boss isnt gonna be around. but that only means more moola for me ;). what else ummmmm ( Read more... )