And this is what happens when I forget to post....
Haha I just realized that not much has changed about me; I’m falling back into my old habits of not updating my journal about important/RL things (I’d rather do memes and Writer’s Block entries instead, lol). Definitely need to break that pattern....
SO!!! NOW I’M ACTUALLY GOING TO UPDATE ABOUT MY LIFE!!! *GASP*
Saturday with Mom: So, my mom and I had a “girls day out” on Saturday; we haven’t had one of those in AGES (usually because of money issues :x). To start off the day, we went to the Exhale salon & spa down the street from our house and got pampered with a facial, massage, manicure and pedicure; I’ve never done any of those before since I’m not a real girly-girl, but it was a lot of fun!! Getting to relax and have other people take care of you for 3 hours is rather refreshing (I’m sure my mom felt the same way)~ It helped that we both had gift certificates to the salon; the one I gave mom for mother’s day covered everything for her, and the one my parents gave me for Christmas covered all but $25 of mine :3 I had my nails painted pink (which I’m sure Mono will love when he gets to see it xD), and I was told that I have very nice skin by the woman who gave me my facial :D After being pampered, I treated mom to lunch/breakfast at IHOP to satisfy her craving for pancakes (and my craving for eggs ;p), and then we went shopping for a little bit...to grab some things to make a very special birthday present for someone I love~ Overall, it was a very enjoyable day, and I’m glad that I got to spend some quality time with my mom <3 This just enforces the fact that I need to get out of the house more often, lol!!
Sunday night with Dad: Yesterday in general was a pretty boring day....until like, 9pm lol. My dad and I went down to Emma’s to grab some pizza for dinner, and while we waited we had a few drinks at the bar. This is the first time I’ve actually GONE drinking since I turned 21, so it was a rather....interesting experience xD My dad was so proud, he kept telling all of his friends/acquaintances at the bar that he was “out drinking for the first time with his daughter”. It was kind of embarrassing...but in a cute way ^^;; While I was there, I had a mudslide (Vodka, Bailey’s Irish Cream, Kaluha, Ice Cream, Chocolate and whipped cream), an Appletini (Grey Goose Vodka, Sour Pucker Apple and lime juice) and a Butterball shot (I forget what this was exactly, but it tasted like butterscotch :3). I’m still kind of in the “experimenting” mode, since I have no idea what I like when it comes to alcohol, lol. I have to say, though, I particularly enjoyed the Mudslide and the Butterball....which I literally downed in a few seconds xD The highlight of all of this, though, was the fact that I DEFINITELY noticed a difference between before and after I had the drinks. I wasn’t drunk (since I could still walk fairly straight and was aware of what was going on around me), but the room was definitely spinning a bit and I felt less in control of myself physically. I guess this is what it feels like to be very buzzed?? lol My parents actually found how I was acting hilarious; I can’t imagine how it must feel to see your daughter with a big grin plastered on her face, tipsy as hell and talking like a curious child about the whole experience, haha. Sadly I’m still feeling the after effects of this little excursion today, but it was definitely a worthwhile and interesting experience (note to self: I need to eat something BEFORE I drink...and find a way to build up my tolerance o.o). Here’s hoping that I can make some friends in college so that I can try this again...but with people my own age ;p At least now I know, based on how I acted last night, that I would definitely be a happy drunk :D
Diet Progress: So, for those of you who are unaware, I am currently doing the Weight Watchers diet - yay, Elyse and I are WW buddies!! :D I started it back in March via the WW program at my work (working for J&J has its benefits <3) and just recently started coupling the dieting with exercising at the gym...which is also at my work lol. So far I’ve lost a total of 24 lbs (and this is taking into account the fact that I ignored my diet for 2 weeks when I was on vacation in SC xD). I can’t help being excited about my progress so far, and only hope that it continues going this well. I’m super determined to lose weight and reach my goal this time, no matter what!! >:O
Mono & me: This has been one of the things at the forefront of my mind recently. Again, for those who are unaware, I am in a “relationship” with a 23 year old graduate student in Japan named Radesa (Mono is his nickname); I met him via the guild I’m in on Ragnarok Online. He’s funny, sweet, romantic, trusting and knows/understands me better than most people; I always feel like I can be myself around him <3 The reason why I say I’m in a “relationship” with him is because we are not officially dating. We both love each other very much, but he currently has a girlfriend in Japan that he also cares for, which is what makes all of this so complicated ^^;; Basically, his girlfriend in Japan is there to fulfill his physical needs (sex, physical comfort, etc.) and whatever else I am unable to do for him, and I fulfill his emotional needs (comfort, support, good conversation, etc.). He’s told me before that if it wasn’t for his physical needs that he wouldn’t date anyone else; he would completely devote himself to me (and of course, I would devote myself 100% to him as well...not that I'm not doing that already xD). I guess that’s what really sucks about long distance relationships...particularly ones that span continents lol. I wish I could be there for him more than anything, and I do admittedly get jealous of his girlfriend on occasion (which he is aware of), but as complicated as this whole situation is…I can’t keep myself from loving him ^^;; I know his heart is in the right place and he’s not intentionally trying to hurt me (even though I do get hurt sometimes, especially recently because of how busy he’s been with work, finals and his friends). I’ll spare most of the details, but up until recently I was feeling neglected, unloved and well...just really crappy about the whole situation. I haven’t been able to see him or really chat with him for more than 15-30 minutes for the last week, and it left me feeling very lonely. I was trying to be strong and not let any of it get to me, but I am admittedly a very weak person, especially when it comes to love. However, I don’t know how or why, but something in me changed yesterday. I went from being sad, weak and neglected to strong, positive and hopeful!! Seems like a miraculous change to me, lol. Maybe I finally realized that if I continue to be strong for him, then there’s a possibility I could end up with the man of my dreams. Maybe I realized that even though I haven’t been able to talk with him, I know he’s thinking of me and that he still loves me; even though I sometimes feel like I’m putting more of myself into this relationship than I should (more than he seems to at times, though that's definitely unfair of me to say), as long as I know he still cares and is working hard, that’s all that really matters. After all, he took on a second job just so that he could raise the money to come visit me for 10 days in April!! So I know he’s working hard and thinking about us :3 Whatever changed in me, I’m glad to report that I have finally worked myself out of the sadness and have hope for the future again <3 I guess I'm finally taking Mono's "Don't think, feel" attitude to heart~
So, aside from all of the other things I mentioned, I’ve been filling up my time by:
Yeah, I REALLY need to update this more frequently so that I don’t have to keep making super long entries like this XD Must...update....as....things...happen >:O
SO!!! NOW I’M ACTUALLY GOING TO UPDATE ABOUT MY LIFE!!! *GASP*
Saturday with Mom: So, my mom and I had a “girls day out” on Saturday; we haven’t had one of those in AGES (usually because of money issues :x). To start off the day, we went to the Exhale salon & spa down the street from our house and got pampered with a facial, massage, manicure and pedicure; I’ve never done any of those before since I’m not a real girly-girl, but it was a lot of fun!! Getting to relax and have other people take care of you for 3 hours is rather refreshing (I’m sure my mom felt the same way)~ It helped that we both had gift certificates to the salon; the one I gave mom for mother’s day covered everything for her, and the one my parents gave me for Christmas covered all but $25 of mine :3 I had my nails painted pink (which I’m sure Mono will love when he gets to see it xD), and I was told that I have very nice skin by the woman who gave me my facial :D After being pampered, I treated mom to lunch/breakfast at IHOP to satisfy her craving for pancakes (and my craving for eggs ;p), and then we went shopping for a little bit...to grab some things to make a very special birthday present for someone I love~ Overall, it was a very enjoyable day, and I’m glad that I got to spend some quality time with my mom <3 This just enforces the fact that I need to get out of the house more often, lol!!
Sunday night with Dad: Yesterday in general was a pretty boring day....until like, 9pm lol. My dad and I went down to Emma’s to grab some pizza for dinner, and while we waited we had a few drinks at the bar. This is the first time I’ve actually GONE drinking since I turned 21, so it was a rather....interesting experience xD My dad was so proud, he kept telling all of his friends/acquaintances at the bar that he was “out drinking for the first time with his daughter”. It was kind of embarrassing...but in a cute way ^^;; While I was there, I had a mudslide (Vodka, Bailey’s Irish Cream, Kaluha, Ice Cream, Chocolate and whipped cream), an Appletini (Grey Goose Vodka, Sour Pucker Apple and lime juice) and a Butterball shot (I forget what this was exactly, but it tasted like butterscotch :3). I’m still kind of in the “experimenting” mode, since I have no idea what I like when it comes to alcohol, lol. I have to say, though, I particularly enjoyed the Mudslide and the Butterball....which I literally downed in a few seconds xD The highlight of all of this, though, was the fact that I DEFINITELY noticed a difference between before and after I had the drinks. I wasn’t drunk (since I could still walk fairly straight and was aware of what was going on around me), but the room was definitely spinning a bit and I felt less in control of myself physically. I guess this is what it feels like to be very buzzed?? lol My parents actually found how I was acting hilarious; I can’t imagine how it must feel to see your daughter with a big grin plastered on her face, tipsy as hell and talking like a curious child about the whole experience, haha. Sadly I’m still feeling the after effects of this little excursion today, but it was definitely a worthwhile and interesting experience (note to self: I need to eat something BEFORE I drink...and find a way to build up my tolerance o.o). Here’s hoping that I can make some friends in college so that I can try this again...but with people my own age ;p At least now I know, based on how I acted last night, that I would definitely be a happy drunk :D
Diet Progress: So, for those of you who are unaware, I am currently doing the Weight Watchers diet - yay, Elyse and I are WW buddies!! :D I started it back in March via the WW program at my work (working for J&J has its benefits <3) and just recently started coupling the dieting with exercising at the gym...which is also at my work lol. So far I’ve lost a total of 24 lbs (and this is taking into account the fact that I ignored my diet for 2 weeks when I was on vacation in SC xD). I can’t help being excited about my progress so far, and only hope that it continues going this well. I’m super determined to lose weight and reach my goal this time, no matter what!! >:O
Mono & me: This has been one of the things at the forefront of my mind recently. Again, for those who are unaware, I am in a “relationship” with a 23 year old graduate student in Japan named Radesa (Mono is his nickname); I met him via the guild I’m in on Ragnarok Online. He’s funny, sweet, romantic, trusting and knows/understands me better than most people; I always feel like I can be myself around him <3 The reason why I say I’m in a “relationship” with him is because we are not officially dating. We both love each other very much, but he currently has a girlfriend in Japan that he also cares for, which is what makes all of this so complicated ^^;; Basically, his girlfriend in Japan is there to fulfill his physical needs (sex, physical comfort, etc.) and whatever else I am unable to do for him, and I fulfill his emotional needs (comfort, support, good conversation, etc.). He’s told me before that if it wasn’t for his physical needs that he wouldn’t date anyone else; he would completely devote himself to me (and of course, I would devote myself 100% to him as well...not that I'm not doing that already xD). I guess that’s what really sucks about long distance relationships...particularly ones that span continents lol. I wish I could be there for him more than anything, and I do admittedly get jealous of his girlfriend on occasion (which he is aware of), but as complicated as this whole situation is…I can’t keep myself from loving him ^^;; I know his heart is in the right place and he’s not intentionally trying to hurt me (even though I do get hurt sometimes, especially recently because of how busy he’s been with work, finals and his friends). I’ll spare most of the details, but up until recently I was feeling neglected, unloved and well...just really crappy about the whole situation. I haven’t been able to see him or really chat with him for more than 15-30 minutes for the last week, and it left me feeling very lonely. I was trying to be strong and not let any of it get to me, but I am admittedly a very weak person, especially when it comes to love. However, I don’t know how or why, but something in me changed yesterday. I went from being sad, weak and neglected to strong, positive and hopeful!! Seems like a miraculous change to me, lol. Maybe I finally realized that if I continue to be strong for him, then there’s a possibility I could end up with the man of my dreams. Maybe I realized that even though I haven’t been able to talk with him, I know he’s thinking of me and that he still loves me; even though I sometimes feel like I’m putting more of myself into this relationship than I should (more than he seems to at times, though that's definitely unfair of me to say), as long as I know he still cares and is working hard, that’s all that really matters. After all, he took on a second job just so that he could raise the money to come visit me for 10 days in April!! So I know he’s working hard and thinking about us :3 Whatever changed in me, I’m glad to report that I have finally worked myself out of the sadness and have hope for the future again <3 I guess I'm finally taking Mono's "Don't think, feel" attitude to heart~
So, aside from all of the other things I mentioned, I’ve been filling up my time by:
- Working 40 hours a week q__q - I really shouldn’t complain, since this job is fairly easy and pays FAR above minimum wage, but I do sometimes wish I had more free time ^^;; Oh wells, at least it helps fund my interests, school and my family, so it’s all worthwhile~
- Playing Ragnarok Online - Like this is a big surprise, lol. I’ve been addicted to this game for almost 2 years now (less so recently, but I still play it quite often). It helps that all of my guild mates are super awesome & hilarious, not to mention the fact that I’ve met many of them in real life >:3
- Cleaning my Room - Not gonna lie, my room is ridiculously messy & full of crap xD I’ve been making progress in cleaning/organizing everything recently, though!! It feels good to be doing something productive IRL for a change. Plus I get to unpack all of my video games and anime stuff that I had stored away and put them back on display, which is awesome <3. I forgot how much anime paraphernalia I have, lol!
- Icons and Icontests!! - It’s been ages since I’ve participated in these (since the last time I posted in my old journal, in fact), but I’m so glad that I’ve taken up this hobby again. I forgot how much fun it can be!! :3 Sad to say that most of the icontests that I used to participate in are now closed, but I’ve found quite a few good ones to replace them. Oh, and I decided to take up a 100 icon challenge at disney100 for Howl’s Moving Castle <3 I only have 5 done so far, but it’s a lot of fun~ I post all of my icons in batches over at icons_kakumei, so go check it out if you’re interested ;D
- Working on Mono’s birthday present - I dare not post what it is here (in case he's reading this right now ;o), but I’m making him something for his birthday next month. I can only hope that he likes it...and even if he doesn’t, I’m sure he’ll at least appreciate the gesture and the fact that I made it just for him <3
Yeah, I REALLY need to update this more frequently so that I don’t have to keep making super long entries like this XD Must...update....as....things...happen >:O