Why don't you just fucking end it
I know you want to
You don't even give a shit anymore.

I love how little fucking impact I have on everyones life
I'm just another speed bump

I won't be the one to disappoint you anymore
I know I've said all this so that you've heard it all before
The trick is getting you to think that all this is your idea
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You keep on sucking me, sucking me in.

I wish you would quit giving me the cold shoulder. 
You tear me to pieces.
Asshole.

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole
I don't wanna hurt you
I don't wanna make you sway
Like I know I've done before
I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head ( Read more... )

He's been being an asshole lately.
I've been just blowing it off.
I'm not sure if thats smart or not..
things are getting worse and worse.
I'm gaining weight.
I hope he's fucking happy.
I am completely miserable.
I am pretty much sick of everything.
I am sick of myself.
I am sick of my fucking body issues!
I am sick of my relationship!
I AM SO SICK OF ( Read more... )

You ask me why I put myself through this, to you I say
If you've ever chased a dream you know I can have it no other way

Please
Tell me how you lift these heavy bricks
And how you built this path for me to walk on
You carve yourself in stones
With the strength of all convinced
But I know your skin
Is still as thin as mine

Bladen and I got in a huge fight last night ( Read more... )

Life has been weird.
I know I always say that.
I don't know what to think about anything.
I'm kind of crushed.
I've been in a weird kind of isolation.
I'm not sure when I'll come out of it.

It's kinda sad that I have learned to deal with things like this.
Being strong means being heartless.
Tell me, how do the scars feel after the wounds heal?
Did it burn when they cauterized?
Did it show that you were hiding the hurt inside?
Do your eyes still shine as bright as they did
the days when you were at your best?

Just when the wounds start ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of this happening.
This is the 5th day in a row something has come up that I can't see you.
I can't take it anymore!
I CAN'T!

everyone else gets to see who they want when they want 
why can't I have that?
why does it have to be this damn hard?!?