I've reverted to complaining on this particular medium because its late and I have nowhere else to turn. Felt the need to think out loud, whether you dismiss what I write or decide to care is entirely another matter. Basically, I feel like shit. Got my hopes up I'd get to spend time with Jenny today, but I never heard back from her later, and from ( Read more... )

I'm alive. If you want to know anything more than that, you should ask me yourself. Because at this point, except for Nate, I've spent more time with people I barely know in Flushing than with friends I've known for months or years. I'm sorry for being a bit antisocial last week, but between the secrets and the drama, I was having trouble enjoying ( Read more... )

Earlier tonight Mike, Liz, and I were watching Lost in Translation with Bill Murray. Seeing his character in the bar night after night made me worry about what will happen to me when I turn 21. Fear that I will end up like that character, sitting alone at the bar every night. I wasn't an alcoholic when I decided to quit drinking. But I was getting ( Read more... )

I meant to post this a week ago, but I had yet to get this livejournal thing working. I've tried telling a few of you about this, but I'm better at expressing myself through writing than I am in person. Most of this I wrote down the moment after I woke up from the dream, literally poured out of me ( Read more... )

Was listening to music on the way home from Faulkner's and for some reason I had to hear this song, I don't know why. Normally its one of those songs I listen to when I'm depressed, but I don't think I am right now. Something just feels off. Another Scooby Doo mystery I guess ( Read more... )

So I guess the best topic to start this whole thing off is my dinner date with Lauren last night. All in all I'd have to say it went pretty good. We went to this upscale Italian restaurant Papa Vino's in Pontiac. I stopped at a flower shop along the way and bought her flowers. I haven't been on many blind dates before, hell, it had been a long time ( Read more... )

playing with different settings and seeing what'll happen, i'll get this right sometime.

Its late and I've had a bad night so I hope this works.