fanmix: if my heart was a compass
Remember my Brittany/Santana fic, If My Heart Was A Compass? Well, the awesome dealan311 made that fic a freaking FANMIX. YEAH, I KNOW.
And she has incredible timing, since it was my birthday yesterday, and we weren't friends yet so I don't think she knew this fact. It was clearly meant to be.
I know most of you guys are Bones peeps, but LOOK AT THE PRETTY. The music is excellent too, so even if you have no intentions of reading my fic, you should snag the mix and feel closer to me. I've been listening to it non-stop since last night, and I love it to bits and pieces. You should too.
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1. Jon McLaughlin- Beautiful Disaster
she would change everything for happy ever after
caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
she just needs someone to take her home
she's just the way she is, but no one's told her that's okay
Santana Lopez has it all figured out.
2. Maria Taylor- Xanax
Afraid my heart, it beats too slow
or like a died and just didn't know
or of a fate I will have to choose
and I'm afraid of how much I love you
"It's no big deal if they know. Just, you know, it doesn't have to be made into a thing. It's nobody's business what we do."
"Okay. I don't care, San. I just don't want to stop."
3. Feist- Secret Heart
secret heart, what are you made of
what are you so afraid of
could it be, three simple words
or the fear of being overheard
When Brittany tells her that she loves her and really, really means it, it makes Santana feel alive. And when Santana says it back, she's never meant anything more in her life. After the feeling settles in though, she is absolutely terrified.
4. Sarah Fimm- Be Like Water (Isolation Mix)
Don't sell out, don't get bent
Don't fuck your best friend
If everything is just the way it should be
Why am I why am I still hungry?
"She doesn't want me anymore, okay? She's never fucking needed me."
"You don't know that. Have you even talked to her?"
5. Kendall Payne- Scratch
the strangest place I think I've ever been
and all this time, I thought that we were friends
my stubborn will is learning to bend
I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
"What happens now?"
"Now we just…You want to give this a shot? Just you and me?"
"Yeah."
"Okay. Then that's what we'll do."
6. The Weepies - Somebody Loved
Rain turns the sand into mud
Wind turns the trees into bone
Stars turning high up above
You turn me into somebody loved
"I feel like I've just been a burden in her life. Like she wants to be free but she's pulled back to this shithole because of me....I'm being such a fucking pussy about this."
"Stop that. No, you're not."
7. Abra Moore - Family Affair
where do we begin with this unhappy ending?
where do we begin after all that we've done?
how do we begin to say I forgive you?
and how do we begin to repair this family affair?
"I'm sorry. I-I want this to work too. I just… forget sometimes, what it was like."
"Un día a la vez, okay?"
"I-okay. One day at a time."
8. Joshua Radin- Brand New Day
It's a brand new day
The sun is shining
It's a brand new day
For the first time in such a long long time
I know I'll be okay
By the time her mother finds them, they are presentable, and Santana's heart doesn't ache when she's pulled into a tight embrace. It's not exactly familiar yet, but it's a start, and if there's one thing Brittany has taught her, it's new beginnings.
9. Ingrid Michaelson - Breakable
Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess.
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.
"And you, what makes you invincible?"
"I'm not. I just tough it out because my pride's more important to me than a few bruises on my skin."
"Your safety's more important to me than an elbow to the chest."
*
"Noah Puckerman. I just heard. That was highly irresponsible. What if you had injured yourself to the point of physical disability? Regionals is next weekend. Are you trying to ruin my life?"
10. Aerosmith - I Don't Want To Miss a Thing
Don't want to close my eyes
Don't want to fall asleep,
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
"You have my heart. You are my heart. My whole fucking heart."
11. Craig David- World Filled with Love (credits)
'Cause I mean I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love,
So when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sunshine in my life.
The sound of Brittany's laughter drifts up the stairs and through her open bedroom door, and Santana smiles. She rushes downstairs and finds Brittany and her sister near the entrance, doubled over with laughter. Behind them, Brittany's mom is flushed pink and hiding her eyes in embarrassment. Santana's own mother stands beside them, her eyes lit up, like she's never known any other moment before this one.
Santana doesn't ask; she doesn't have to. She just laughs along.
Download link can be found here.
And she has incredible timing, since it was my birthday yesterday, and we weren't friends yet so I don't think she knew this fact. It was clearly meant to be.
I know most of you guys are Bones peeps, but LOOK AT THE PRETTY. The music is excellent too, so even if you have no intentions of reading my fic, you should snag the mix and feel closer to me. I've been listening to it non-stop since last night, and I love it to bits and pieces. You should too.
(click for bigger versions)
1. Jon McLaughlin- Beautiful Disaster
she would change everything for happy ever after
caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
she just needs someone to take her home
she's just the way she is, but no one's told her that's okay
Santana Lopez has it all figured out.
2. Maria Taylor- Xanax
Afraid my heart, it beats too slow
or like a died and just didn't know
or of a fate I will have to choose
and I'm afraid of how much I love you
"It's no big deal if they know. Just, you know, it doesn't have to be made into a thing. It's nobody's business what we do."
"Okay. I don't care, San. I just don't want to stop."
3. Feist- Secret Heart
secret heart, what are you made of
what are you so afraid of
could it be, three simple words
or the fear of being overheard
When Brittany tells her that she loves her and really, really means it, it makes Santana feel alive. And when Santana says it back, she's never meant anything more in her life. After the feeling settles in though, she is absolutely terrified.
4. Sarah Fimm- Be Like Water (Isolation Mix)
Don't sell out, don't get bent
Don't fuck your best friend
If everything is just the way it should be
Why am I why am I still hungry?
"She doesn't want me anymore, okay? She's never fucking needed me."
"You don't know that. Have you even talked to her?"
5. Kendall Payne- Scratch
the strangest place I think I've ever been
and all this time, I thought that we were friends
my stubborn will is learning to bend
I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
"What happens now?"
"Now we just…You want to give this a shot? Just you and me?"
"Yeah."
"Okay. Then that's what we'll do."
6. The Weepies - Somebody Loved
Rain turns the sand into mud
Wind turns the trees into bone
Stars turning high up above
You turn me into somebody loved
"I feel like I've just been a burden in her life. Like she wants to be free but she's pulled back to this shithole because of me....I'm being such a fucking pussy about this."
"Stop that. No, you're not."
7. Abra Moore - Family Affair
where do we begin with this unhappy ending?
where do we begin after all that we've done?
how do we begin to say I forgive you?
and how do we begin to repair this family affair?
"I'm sorry. I-I want this to work too. I just… forget sometimes, what it was like."
"Un día a la vez, okay?"
"I-okay. One day at a time."
8. Joshua Radin- Brand New Day
It's a brand new day
The sun is shining
It's a brand new day
For the first time in such a long long time
I know I'll be okay
By the time her mother finds them, they are presentable, and Santana's heart doesn't ache when she's pulled into a tight embrace. It's not exactly familiar yet, but it's a start, and if there's one thing Brittany has taught her, it's new beginnings.
9. Ingrid Michaelson - Breakable
Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess.
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.
"And you, what makes you invincible?"
"I'm not. I just tough it out because my pride's more important to me than a few bruises on my skin."
"Your safety's more important to me than an elbow to the chest."
*
"Noah Puckerman. I just heard. That was highly irresponsible. What if you had injured yourself to the point of physical disability? Regionals is next weekend. Are you trying to ruin my life?"
10. Aerosmith - I Don't Want To Miss a Thing
Don't want to close my eyes
Don't want to fall asleep,
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
"You have my heart. You are my heart. My whole fucking heart."
11. Craig David- World Filled with Love (credits)
'Cause I mean I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love,
So when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sunshine in my life.
The sound of Brittany's laughter drifts up the stairs and through her open bedroom door, and Santana smiles. She rushes downstairs and finds Brittany and her sister near the entrance, doubled over with laughter. Behind them, Brittany's mom is flushed pink and hiding her eyes in embarrassment. Santana's own mother stands beside them, her eyes lit up, like she's never known any other moment before this one.
Santana doesn't ask; she doesn't have to. She just laughs along.
Download link can be found here.