I closed the door to this room (and I'm never coming back)
because opening it would mean slicing another piece of skin to show that I am not made of iron and stories of camaraderie. I am filled with figures and facts who refuses to see that once upon a time, I believed in alternate universes which every one is happy and kyungsoo died because of a broken heart.
In 2016, I opened another one. I opened room 002016 and saw let's write our fake futures on virtual stupidity and vain praises written on dingy interior that clashes bright colors and minimal hues. So I wrote. Back then, everybody liked starting stories without the intention of finishing them. So we started. We started stories we didn't intend to show to the world, the endings forgotten. The lies ket rolling
In 2017, I closed again this door. I turned my back to alternate universes and alternate realities. I closed it because I decided that there is more to faking destiny, to playing god. I got tired of merging delusions to realities. So the stories kept coming and still left unfinished. But this room is finished. The wallpapers have faded and the pictures have long been taken down. It's time to face another light. In 2017, I still continue to love the boys that pulled me out from the abyss and I might never stop loving them.
(it's time to end this. my old and forgotten masterlist)
Drabbles and Random Crap (and not the good type either)
Shadow Shorelines // Kai/D.O
Along the shoreline, two shadows stand still.
I Remember (Please please please let me get what I want) // Xiumin/Luhan
This all seems so new but somehow familiar
I must have met you over a thousand what if's // Baekhyun/Chanyeol
Chanyeol and Baekhyun may or may have not met all through out generations.Chanyeol may or may have not noticed it. Baekhyun may or may not be mad about something Chanyeol did decades ago. Minseok blows up and no one still listens to Joonmyun.
Water Letters (Letters I never sent to you)
Do Kyungsoo (160401)
Why do you look far beyond me? To something distant.
Kim Jongin
Misc
It's a little over midnight (and I might be missing you)
Fanarts (and the nights I dicked around Ps)*
Idea of Paradise // Baekhyun/Chanyeol
Chanyeol wanted a divorce. Baekhyun asked for a week. for exobubz's 10080
Piano Lessons // Suho/Chen
Joonmyun might be too interested in his student
Long Lost Sisters // Bom/Lee Hi
The flower symbolizes my longing for you, my sister. Where have you been? What took you so long?
200% // Kai/D.O
When I look at you, the love and instinct in my heart tells me to hurry and confess to you.
Mr. DJ, can I make a request? // Baekhyun/Chanyeol
Baekhyun requests for a song, hoping Chanyeol would remember.
*Locked. Let's leave that to 2014, shall we?
stealing something that's got no worth isn't really a good way to go down. some citations would be nice. but go down with the stealing if you're that kind of person.
UPDATE: XINGFORYOU IS NOW CLOSED.