Ever had an epiphany that wasn't so much a revelation of something new, but an acknowledgement of something you've known for a while but never really gave much thought to
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It's really wonderful that you are that comfortable with yourself and your life in that way. Not many can say that. Good for you!
You don't need to be with someone to feel complete in your life~ you are still young, you can always have a relationship when you are ready to settle down ^^
Despite being comfortable I still think I feel incomplete without someone to share it with. However that creates a really [annoying] conundrum. At this point in time, I don't think I'd be willing to give up the sort of dictatorial control I have over my life unless I meet the "right" person; or someone I perceive to be the right person at the time.
Though I have a feeling as well, when I meet the right person for me at that stage of my life, I'll know (and hopefully won't screw it up) and actually release my grip and let a new routine establish itself.
How are things by the way? Did you get that email I sent you a couple weeks back? How are you and Sean doing? Must. Catch. Up. With. You. =P
I'm doing just fine thanks! I did get your email, but I'm sorry that I haven't been able to respond. I got alot while I was away in London >.>; But it all sounds so exciting! I'd love to work on it~ the only thing is, I'm not sure what this year is gonna be like for me. Everything after graduation is all up in the air. The other thing is, I never learned html coding~ I do it all by dreamweaver (WYSIWYG), which probably isn't the best sounding thing for your site. It should probably be made using style sheets so that you can update it constantly without having to touch the code.
Well, I'm looking at solutions that might make it possible to utilize something like Dreamweaver or other WYSIWYG editors. Might not be for a few months til we get to that point any way. I'll be sure to touch base with you again when we get closer to that point and see if we can work something out. I'd definitely be willing to work around whatever your schedule is as well at the time especially if you are really interested!
The last thing I would want to do is add anything more on to what is probably a pretty full platter for this semester for you.
I'm sure you're quite busy until after Katsu (and probably after), but we can always catch up when time is found! We should get a small group (or large group) of people together to hang out and grab dinner some time in the next month or two!
You and I are opposites in this. Lately I've been having extremely good luck with my professional life but my personal life has been shit. It's this weird balance that I don't like at all. I can keep lying to myself by saying that once I accomplish something and become successful everything will be ok but I immediately know it isn't true. Having to smile when you're not feeling it sucks big.
I understand what you mean about losing your iron grip on life but I don't agree with it. I personally like the possibility of uncertainty or chaos. Life can get too routine otherwise.
Yeah I know what you mean; spontenaity and uncertainty or I suppose "chaos" fits well as a general description, can be attractive. It is to me at times in my life as well. However as you say, we are opposites in this (which is why we'd make a kick ass writing team!), I like things very regimented and I like to be able to know what I'm doing (at least in general) this monday, next monday, and every monday here after. I eat one specific meal at certain restaurants (for instance at sandwich shop A I will order a Turkey sandwich, at sandwich shop B, that serves the same food pretty much but is a different store chain I will order a ham sandwich and never interchange stores and their orders
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i do experience what you're talking about, not so much, a revalation of something new, but that acknowledgement, or reassurance of something you've known... usually its because every couple hours i'm experiencing de ja vu... its like i'm being reassured "you're right where you should be
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Re: de ja vusarahmadelineJanuary 22 2006, 09:23:31 UTC
okay, forgive my repetitive "you know whats" cause i'm really tired and its like 4am so i should be sleeping but i'm not... and therefore i try to be intelligable but it doesn't always come out that great. hahaha. i'm rambling too.. this is great. (and to clarify, i only get de ja vu in those circumstances... i don't get it every day, actually i haven't had it since Thanksgiving)
Re: de ja vuzhangosquJanuary 22 2006, 16:45:53 UTC
Hehe, its all good with the repetitive "you know whats." But yeah you're right, I think if I meet the right person (or someone I feel is the right person at the time) I'll share my life with them, but hopefully I won't feel the need to rearrange everything and make my life revolve around them completely. I don't however, want my life turned upside down as you say where I have no control over it and I pass what control I had to a significant other.
It may seem hypocritical, since I made the post about realizing that I'm happy where I am, but despite being happy where I am a part of me still feels like I'm missing out on something not being able to share it with someone. I suppose that only natural though. You're right though, I'm young, 23 means I've got some time ahead of me and a lot can happen.
I totally agree. Once you become comfortable in your own skin, and you like what you're doing, the rest comes naturally. You've got enough on your plate, and well, love generally comes when you aren't looking for it. You should just focus on enjoying life and doing what you want. And it sounds like you are. That's rad. You're just out doing your thing, which is awesome! I'm really glad to hear that you are so comfortable with your situation and just taking life as it comes along. It's really refreshing to read it, and I'm really happy for you dude! I want you to be happy, and only you know what that is for you. Hopefully it involves hanging out with me and drinking beer and talking videogames. And like you said in the comment above. You're only 23, there's still lots of life ahead, I have total faith that love will find you, when you're ready, and it'll be great.
Yeah man, one of these days I'm gonna need to make some time to hang out with you, beer + videogames = awesomeness!
You're absolutely right though, when I'm ready for it, or the right person comes into my life (for that period of my life or longer) I'll know and I don't think I'll miss a beat in pursuing a relationship. At least, I hope not.
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You don't need to be with someone to feel complete in your life~ you are still young, you can always have a relationship when you are ready to settle down ^^
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Though I have a feeling as well, when I meet the right person for me at that stage of my life, I'll know (and hopefully won't screw it up) and actually release my grip and let a new routine establish itself.
How are things by the way? Did you get that email I sent you a couple weeks back? How are you and Sean doing? Must. Catch. Up. With. You. =P
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Whew!
Catching up must happen. yes!
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The last thing I would want to do is add anything more on to what is probably a pretty full platter for this semester for you.
I'm sure you're quite busy until after Katsu (and probably after), but we can always catch up when time is found! We should get a small group (or large group) of people together to hang out and grab dinner some time in the next month or two!
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I understand what you mean about losing your iron grip on life but I don't agree with it. I personally like the possibility of uncertainty or chaos. Life can get too routine otherwise.
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(and to clarify, i only get de ja vu in those circumstances... i don't get it every day, actually i haven't had it since Thanksgiving)
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It may seem hypocritical, since I made the post about realizing that I'm happy where I am, but despite being happy where I am a part of me still feels like I'm missing out on something not being able to share it with someone. I suppose that only natural though. You're right though, I'm young, 23 means I've got some time ahead of me and a lot can happen.
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You're just out doing your thing, which is awesome! I'm really glad to hear that you are so comfortable with your situation and just taking life as it comes along. It's really refreshing to read it, and I'm really happy for you dude! I want you to be happy, and only you know what that is for you.
Hopefully it involves hanging out with me and drinking beer and talking videogames.
And like you said in the comment above. You're only 23, there's still lots of life ahead, I have total faith that love will find you, when you're ready, and it'll be great.
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You're absolutely right though, when I'm ready for it, or the right person comes into my life (for that period of my life or longer) I'll know and I don't think I'll miss a beat in pursuing a relationship. At least, I hope not.
Good to hear from you man!
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