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Nov 26, 2003 08:44

I don't believe in myself any longer. I don't trust myself. I started to stop trusting myself some time this year. The seeds of that mistrust were there, sure. I never believed I could fail to control myself though, and that blow completely annihilated any faith in myself I could have. Maybe permanently. Because if what I believe is true, I ( Read more... )

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Echos namedphoenix November 26 2003, 08:16:00 UTC

This post meant a lot to me. Please tell your wife thank you for me. What you are feeling is much like what my Blake is going through - and I doubt myself sometimes because I think it is a poor decision for me to love him like I do. But I still love him - so much, and I can't explain it and my family doesn't understand it (he's not good enough for them). Hearing how your wife loves you in the midst of all the tears, the depression, the trouble - it makes it okay for me to love Blake in the midst of the same.

Re: Echos zigurat November 26 2003, 08:41:06 UTC

You are so cool. Thank you.

I think right now I'm not good enough for my family.

Re: Echos namedphoenix November 26 2003, 08:48:18 UTC

Your posts are always great to read and they help me think about how I want my life to be in a few years - although not with quite so many children ;) ( I love kids, but that would be too difficult for me to have all day - I'm going to have 150 at work, so I'll want some time of quiet and I'll want to have my husband to myself for a few years, I'm sure).

Thanks for thinking I'm cool.

namedphoenix November 26 2003, 08:50:04 UTC

PS Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

zigurat November 26 2003, 09:11:03 UTC

I like the way you just threw that in. You too.