I am a good person.

[zionchild]

Sometimes I think that maybe I have dysthymia. I just have cycles of time that my self-esteem goes bye-bye and I internalize everything, and then I'll have a bolstering experience where it feels like the clouds break and I realize I'm actually worth something. When it takes over, I get down on myself for having very few friends, for losing the

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[firstcrusader]

...I don't know if this is directly about me (and I actually don't think it is)... but sorry I'm never around, even online...

[charisangel]

Mmm, dysthymia... I remember you using that term for me once. I had to go look it up.

I wonder sometimes if being misunderstood and misread like that comes with the territory of introversion... like because we internalize stuff instead of being vocal about it, people might fill in the blanks. Perhaps if we would take the time to give others a chance, the benefit of the doubt, there wouldn't be so much misunderstanding and conflict. Just a thought from my tired brain... not sure where it came from. :)

You are a good person. And a good, loyal, caring friend. I'm very sorry we've been so out of touch, because it has been my loss indeed.

[icywolfang]

Yeah you're a good person.

I mean, we're all kind of odd in ways. But that doesn't mean that we are bad.

It is difficult for people like us to "be ourselves" and develop lots of friendships. Thats just the way things go.

You've got it better than you think. Most of us do, but you really should focus more on the good things. Try not to get so down.

[samuraibutterfl]

::hug:: You matter to me.

[djsamwise]

Yeah man. We all got crap that God is working out of us.. and we've all got progress we can look back on for hope that we're not total loosers. :D I think it's great how you value friendship so much.

Love you bro.
-Ryan