October Blues....
I don't like to (keep coming) on here and moaning about how boring/dreary/long my life/days are, but seriously. What is with October? It's like the most depressing month. Summer's over - I don't really like Summer but waking up to mist, fog and rain everyday isn't so hot either. I've got no, and I mean, NO spare money (but Rags at least has finally had all her jabs now - fucking vets bills!). My work is crap and I had an interview last week that I got a nicely worded rejection email for - actually, I do think it's because of the current financial climate and businesses aren't employing, but still. All holidays are over. I don't know - I should be happy really. It's my best friend's birthday on the 22nd and we're going for a meal - but that means either R will have to pay, again (believe me, he pays enough, and I swore that we would always have a 50/50 relationship), or I will have to go further into my overdraft. My Godson has just turned one - but buying his presents is why I have no money. I don't begrudge him them, I love the kid too much, but my bank balance - well, that's another story. Also, my car doesn't feel right so maybe another repair bill? Nobody has even looked at our house so looks like we won't be moving before Christmas. Probably a good thing, actually, considering the state of my finances.
Sod this, you know. I'm just going to smile. There are plusses, if I look hard enough. My work have offered me some paid copywriting, on the side. My friend, who got sacked in September, is now running his own SEO business (kind of) and has potentially offered me some more copywriting, cash in hand. In 3 weeks I will have been living with R for a year, and we haven't killed each other yet. In 4 weeks, we will have been together 5 years. Ditto the last statement, lol. Ben and Rags are healthy and happy, and make me smile. I've found a cheaper pet shop to buy rabbit essentials from. My car hasn't actually broken (yet - I think it may only be a matter of timr mind you). I get paid in approx 2.5 weeks (and believe me, I'm looking forward to that).
I don't know, I just think October has this depressing effect on people. Summer's over, Winter's coming. Winter's cool though - my birthday and Christmas :-)! And Christmas decorating - yay! Just, hurry up October, will ya, make like a tree and leave already.
P.S. Err, sorry anyone who does read this for rambling like an idiot. Apologies and bring on Christmas!!!!
Sod this, you know. I'm just going to smile. There are plusses, if I look hard enough. My work have offered me some paid copywriting, on the side. My friend, who got sacked in September, is now running his own SEO business (kind of) and has potentially offered me some more copywriting, cash in hand. In 3 weeks I will have been living with R for a year, and we haven't killed each other yet. In 4 weeks, we will have been together 5 years. Ditto the last statement, lol. Ben and Rags are healthy and happy, and make me smile. I've found a cheaper pet shop to buy rabbit essentials from. My car hasn't actually broken (yet - I think it may only be a matter of timr mind you). I get paid in approx 2.5 weeks (and believe me, I'm looking forward to that).
I don't know, I just think October has this depressing effect on people. Summer's over, Winter's coming. Winter's cool though - my birthday and Christmas :-)! And Christmas decorating - yay! Just, hurry up October, will ya, make like a tree and leave already.
P.S. Err, sorry anyone who does read this for rambling like an idiot. Apologies and bring on Christmas!!!!