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so.
he responded to jacob's message. there were some lulz, but- I dunno. he did apologize ["I fucked up", haha!] so I'll give him props for that, definetly, but what still kind of annoys me is that it took everyone fucking backing him into a corner to even admit to lieing. much less apologize.
however, apologizing doesn't immediatly relieve him of the consequences of what he's done. I mean, all the relationship nonsense completely aside, he fucking abandoned friends he's had for years. while it isn't like they dislike him, they're hesitant to really forgive him for what he's done.
that being said, I also don't buy part of his apology. he mentioned that yes, he had messed around with her in the past [he said this took place before kira, which conflicts with what tristan lacey had to say about a certain phone conversation where it was said such events did take place during his relationship with kira, though only in the beginning and he has since ceased]. but either what that's irrevelant if kira forgives him. but that he had felt strong sexual and romantic attractions to her throughout,
though that was "unhealthy" and he's "gotten over it". see, that part I don't buy, because I mean he only sent that one message six days from the time he responded to ours.
so I don't know. personally, just since I haven't even seen him in a month anyway, much less had a pleasant talk with him, I could care less if we pick up our friendship again or not. I have a feeling we probably won't since I can understand why he wouldn't.
[though one thing that kind of bothers me about this whole situation is that I seem to be the one everyone is blaming for everything. so, yeah, we all used my lj as the means to get the word out. but that doesn't mean I, alone, hacked his myspace. I don't fucking know his password. that was a group effort, definetly.]
but even so. I can still see why. haha, I even told jacob to change his password and not tell me after all that happened.
and as for the rest of the guys, they feel similarly, in that they're really unsure whether to get over it or leave him. I have a feeling jacob will probably give him a second chance, since they have such a history together.
I dunno what the fuck is up with kira, though, haha. I guess she's been annoyed with me since before this happened? dunno why though.
huh.
whatever. she was cool but personally I don't care if she doesn't wanna be friends with me.
yeah, fuck her. I only saw her twice this summer, through other people, and the one time I actually took the initiative to hang out with her at Catalina she used some stupid insomnia excuse. whatever man.
all this drama is seriously sliding off my back. I'm so content with my life right now. jacob's great, I'm really liking my dad's family, I'm making money. not quite that much art, but eh, that's a phase.
I've not much else to say, since a post about the details of my day and what I did seem kind of trivial and pointless. so meh! time to laze about in my room.
he responded to jacob's message. there were some lulz, but- I dunno. he did apologize ["I fucked up", haha!] so I'll give him props for that, definetly, but what still kind of annoys me is that it took everyone fucking backing him into a corner to even admit to lieing. much less apologize.
however, apologizing doesn't immediatly relieve him of the consequences of what he's done. I mean, all the relationship nonsense completely aside, he fucking abandoned friends he's had for years. while it isn't like they dislike him, they're hesitant to really forgive him for what he's done.
that being said, I also don't buy part of his apology. he mentioned that yes, he had messed around with her in the past [he said this took place before kira, which conflicts with what tristan lacey had to say about a certain phone conversation where it was said such events did take place during his relationship with kira, though only in the beginning and he has since ceased]. but either what that's irrevelant if kira forgives him. but that he had felt strong sexual and romantic attractions to her throughout,
though that was "unhealthy" and he's "gotten over it". see, that part I don't buy, because I mean he only sent that one message six days from the time he responded to ours.
so I don't know. personally, just since I haven't even seen him in a month anyway, much less had a pleasant talk with him, I could care less if we pick up our friendship again or not. I have a feeling we probably won't since I can understand why he wouldn't.
[though one thing that kind of bothers me about this whole situation is that I seem to be the one everyone is blaming for everything. so, yeah, we all used my lj as the means to get the word out. but that doesn't mean I, alone, hacked his myspace. I don't fucking know his password. that was a group effort, definetly.]
but even so. I can still see why. haha, I even told jacob to change his password and not tell me after all that happened.
and as for the rest of the guys, they feel similarly, in that they're really unsure whether to get over it or leave him. I have a feeling jacob will probably give him a second chance, since they have such a history together.
I dunno what the fuck is up with kira, though, haha. I guess she's been annoyed with me since before this happened? dunno why though.
huh.
whatever. she was cool but personally I don't care if she doesn't wanna be friends with me.
yeah, fuck her. I only saw her twice this summer, through other people, and the one time I actually took the initiative to hang out with her at Catalina she used some stupid insomnia excuse. whatever man.
all this drama is seriously sliding off my back. I'm so content with my life right now. jacob's great, I'm really liking my dad's family, I'm making money. not quite that much art, but eh, that's a phase.
I've not much else to say, since a post about the details of my day and what I did seem kind of trivial and pointless. so meh! time to laze about in my room.