❲ 01st angel; VOICE ❳
[ once he's further examined his surroundings , Kaworu settles down, exploring the functions of the device and familiarizing himself with as many aspects of it as he can. the locked section of it raised a brow once he tried to open it but he isn't very concerned presently, instead taking stock of the other pilgrims to this foreign prison
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[the smile on his face reaches his tone, a delicate and palpable weight in his voice despite the faint and underlying tinge of something mysterious, maybe even melancholy.]
The only faith I have is in myself and in my friends. I cannot believe in any gods or goddesses who would take me away from those things. I wouldn't say I am selfish by nature, however.
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Indeed, it's a little hard to take in when we haven't yet had that weight forced upon us, nor seen whatever consequences might lie in the neglect of those duties-- as bizarre as they may seem upon discovery. I doubt many would in fact bow their heads to these gods considering the manner in which we were brought here, but this 'worship' seems to be expected regardless of faith...which leaves one wondering what end will come from rebellion.
[ he seems just as pleased, though there's still that despondent edge when he speaks distantly. ]
I hope you are well, N.
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[the tone is fine with him, really. N has his thoughts on the matter too, but not everything on one's mind needs to be shared. he won't question it as long as kaworu doesn't either.]
I'm quite fine, Kaworu, thank you for asking. I trust you are settling without difficulty as well?
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[ well...Kaworu won't question it for the moment, at least. there are a lot of things he finds himself wanting to know about N-- especially when noticing their similarities in view at the moment. ]
That's good to hear-- and, I am. The living arrangements provided for us are rather generous, and the natural civilians polite. It's almost startlingly welcome, to be honest...though I can no longer speak for the honesty of their benevolence after that 'dream' the other night.
Assuming you had a similar dream, N-- what do you think?
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[he's not sure why he's talking to kaworu about this-- maybe because he can't help but trust him, maybe because he thinks yet again he may or may not understand. does it matter? N is free to talk now, so talk he will.]
I--
[the embarrassment is audible as he hesitates. he can't help but let the nervousness seep into his tone.]
I do feel similarly, it was quite nice of them to treat us, their captives, as well as they have. That being said, the topic of sex and sexuality is, well... awkward for me, I suppose. I must confess, I have not given such matters very much thought at all.
[that's barely scratching the surface, but a king has more important things to worry about than things that would ultimately never matter (as painful as ( ... )
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The human will is one of the most interesting subjects to me, if only for the wide range it encompasses-- strengths, weakness, selfishness; its unpredictable nature holds more than one can freely categorize.
[ about the sex, though... ]
I wouldn't be surprised if there are others like you-- including myself. The topic of intimacy is not something that I've considered deeply in regards to my own self even with my interest in people, and the idea that it may hinge so strongly on our presence here is...
Well. One might say we have the strong possibility of receiving a crash-course in the topic, huh?
[ he can't really say he's all that embarrassed with the possibility, though. :3c ]
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I feel quite the same way. The prospect of no two humans being alike is astounding to me, and to think that within each of us is a singular formula that will at one point equate to our perfection is also quite overwhelming. However, these differences in what motivate us, what makes us tick, how each of us perceives the truth and the strength of our ideals-- I truly want to understand as many of these things as I can.
[of course you wouldn't forget about the sexy part.]
It certainly seems that way. I'm not quite sure how to take it. If our goal is not to populate this world then I fail to see the importance behind our engaging in intercourse or why such a thing would be considered a form of worship.
[if N had pearls, he would be clutching them ever so tightly rn.]
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At least in that manner, this place should provide a good venue for you to do that in-- the same goes for me, of course.
[ never!! ]
I have heard that the act of sex brings great joy to some people, as well as eases the suffering of others. I am not sure, but if referred to as 'worship', as it has been, one would assume that this culmination of feelings bestows some sort of power to the gods...or at the very least, something to the world. Considering how little we have to go on-- the notes, the dreams, the messages, it is hard to say presently.
As I have said before, I am unworried. Looking past the private implications of it and whether I will have to participate or not, this is just another way for me to observe the reactions and living of people.
[ hmm, but. there is what N said before. and he is curious. the other may seem naive but the wonderment left is ( ... )
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Is that so?
[the curiosity is genuine, the astonishment every bit as real as everything else he does and thinks and feels.]
I must say I can't imagine what sort of feelings sex would entail, but that's most likely due to my never having it before. I did learn recently, however, that it is possible for two males and two females to engage in intercourse and it is not limited to a male and female. That too makes it interesting, so I'm starting to understand that the correlation between sex and feelings is indeed a strong one.
[it's difficult not to mind something so complex without any prior knowledge, so N is almost painfully childish in this sense. however, that at least reduces the chances of him enduring any trauma, if it's any consolation.
a hint of sadness seeps into his tone, and he pauses for a moment to think about his hero in unova, his dragon's missing half.]
I am afraid not. I had only one human friend from home and...
[the good humor ( ... )
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[ yep...
Kaworu stills his speech at the second part of what N said, however, tone turning careful, precarious to whatever that difference in tone might mean. ]
I see.
[ a beat, and after a shuffling sound, the feed turns to VIDEO displaying a smile playing at his lips, face a little too close. ]
There is no need to consider yourself entirely alone, even barring Zoroark's presence here.
[ HINT HINT ]
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[a perplexed noise.]
Truth be told, I cannot fathom how two females go about having sexual intercourse either since both are distinctly lacking in penises. I imagine it would be indecent to ask how such a thing would work over the network, too. Matters of simple attraction go over my head as well. I was not in a position where thinking about such things was lucrative to my goal, but I did know of the male and female partnership because of my extensive knowledge of Pokémon breeding. The concept of two males and two females forming emotional bonds and having sex as a result of those bonds is rather new to me.
[the change in tone, the carefulness and deliberation behind it, don't go amiss to him, but kaworu is his friend and is only thinking of his feelings, right? he's not sure, N has more trust issues than someone so childminded ought to be, but the life waiting for him back home is painfully overwhelming at times ( ... )
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[ he has a few more theories on this 'scissoring' thing, but he'll keep them to himself for now. Lilin sure are interesting!!!
pokémon...? the term is wholly unfamiliar, but going by breeding and the like, it must be an animal of some sort-- although the concept of 'breeding' is rather constrained in his mind to that of producing livestock, so...
hm.
Kaworu pulls the device back to a more normal distance, resting it on his knees, drawn up to his chest. he takes in N's expression at once, follows the quirked line of his mouth to his eyes which, as said, are a little mismatched from everything. peculiar, but the other is still a stranger, and there could be any manner of ulterior reasons for it, so he puts it out of mind to speak, tone more inviting. ]
In a way, you could say that's what I meant.
[ he pauses for a second before-- ]
--although I was aiming for something a little more specific.
[ facepalm.gif ]
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[N is a grade A social recluse so anything other than the blunt truth is probably going to go amiss to him. oopsies. he seems to know this though, if his good-humored smile is any indicator.]
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What I meant is that you are not as alone as you might think. You're talking to me right now, correct? I've sad before that I consider you a friend, N, haven't I? To reiterate myself further; even given how recently we have met, there is no need to hesitate to contact me, should you feel the need to do so.
[ :3c ]
That is what friends are for, as far as I understand.
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We are friends?
[he supposes it makes sense, and he does care quite a lot about kaworu, would extend the same gestures to him. the thought actually makes him quite happy, knowing that he has made and appears to be able to provide for a friend, and it's evident in the way the smile he gives kaworu reaches the corners of his eyes.]
That pleases me quite a bit to hear. I believe that makes you my first official friend in Zodion.
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Yes, we are-- if you don't mind my saying so.
[ what could really constitute as a friend, here? or in general? he isn't sure, but he does feel some sort of draw towards the other, whether it's how mysteriously similar he feels to himself, or simply by more natural means. there is, of course the possibility to use N, should he become that trusting in him (and Kaworu isn't above that, if it furthers his own living), but such an idea isn't needed currently. ]
--ah, and you mine.
[ he's tempted to say Izaya was first, but there's something distinctly different there that he can't put his finger on...furthermore, Kaworu doubts Izaya would echo the feeling. ]
While I hope we both acquire many contacts in this world throughout our stay, as is likely to be very beneficial, it pleases very much to say so.
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