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[princesskeeper]

[ Hey there Zodion, here's your friendly neighborhood whore. He's just chilling out in his apartment, sitting in one of his usual yukata while rain makes a gentle cadence against the window behind him. ]

Well, it's been almost four weeks already, and most of us are still here, aren't we?

[ He smiles. As if it doesn't bother him. ]But I think we'

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[freed]

I hope your business endeavor goes well.

[of course his tone is sincere, he's N.]

[princesskeeper]

Thank you!

[ He senses that. ]

If you ever find yourself in need of assistance, N-san...

[freed]

[oh god, that's forward isn't it? N still has a difficult time detecting what's honesty and what's a little too much (or if people are just oversensitive and there's really no such thing). he manages a smile though, trying not to pay any mind to the faint coloration of his face.]

I will keep your offer in mind.

[princesskeeper]

[ It's a bit forward. But that's kind of how Kichou is. He notices N's blush, and thinks it's pretty cute. ]

Good! I wouldn't want you to find yourself in a troubling situation with no one to help.

[freed]

That's very kind of you. It would be rather troublesome, wouldn't it? I appreciate how helpful and understanding you have been with me, so if there is ever a situation where you require such assistance as well, feel free to let me know. and I will do whatever I can to help.

[he wonders vaguely if this counts as accosting someone. oh gosh.]

[princesskeeper]

Thanks! [ He grins. ] The gods didn't cause you any problems last weekend, did they?

[ Had N seen people in the mirror beside himself too? ]

[freed]

It was nothing too troublesome, but thank you for asking anyway. I was able to dispel the reflections by seeking out the people shown to me and having sex with them. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, so the second time it happened I was able to handle the situation quickly.

[princesskeeper]

Oh.

[ Something akin to surprise flashes across Kichou's face, but it's quickly replaced by something like amusement. ] People don't usually speak so lightly of their first time...

[ Then again, he figures that since N was never taught anything about sex and sexuality, how would he know to be embarrassed, or modest, or to treat it as something special? Something to keep to oneself and reflect upon in private or in dreams? Something that you shouldn't talk about so openly or shamelessly? ]

Unless... Was it even your first time?

[ He also assumes N won't mind him asking. ]

[freed]

Oh. Is that so...?

[he taps his chin in thought, thinking back to all the times people have spoken of this fabled First Time with esteem and great importance, as if it were something to be treasured.]

It was indeed the first time I had done anything like it. I had no feelings on the matter one way or the other. It was simply a task required of me and I completed it. However, I do often hear others treating "it" with great reverence. I don't understand why that is though.

[princesskeeper]

[ Kichou sighs sadly. ]

If you don't understand it after having already done it, well...I don't know if you ever will.

[ Then, he shrugs. ]

But if it's not important to you, then it's not really important at all. It depends on the person. ... It depends on how they view sex, if it's something special and private, or something casual. And it depends on how they view themselves, if they think their body is something, ah, sacred, or if it's something to be used for their own pleasure and their partner's pleasure.

[freed]

I see... Sex truly is a very complicated matter, isn't it?

[a sigh.]

I have never given thought to any of those things. I understand that love plays a very big part in sex, but I do not love anyone here, so that particular aspect is something I suppose I am missing out on. I never paid a lot of mind to my self-image either. It wasn't required of me and appearances never did concern me much. Sex is pleasurable, certainly, but it isn't something I would actively seek out one way or the other either.

[he can't help but let a small smile escape as he shakes his head.]

It's strange, isn't it?

[it's a legitimate question; he has no idea if such a lackadaisical point of view is the norm.]