Fuck all, you know what it is time for me to fucking grow the fuck up. I am tired of going nowhere and having no one. So far, my first step of my plan is to quit smoking, and I mean both cigerettes and the drugs. Second, I have decided in order to get what I want I am going to get TWO jobs, thats right people, the guy that hardly ever works, is ( Read more... )

Well its about time I did something with my life. So I am more than likely getting a job at Panera Bread with Mike. Neat, I mean it is a start anyways. One thing I have also decided is that I am gonna go to school next semester. I need to. I have to do something with myself before I waste away. It just feels like it is time to grow up a bit ( Read more... )

Yeah sorry about that last post, I mean what the fuck! Wow what a loser. haha. Well yeah sorry i was alone and depressed goddamnit i have a right to feel too damnit. but nah i am fine and dandy. because i know i rock. i rock really hard. and thats all that really matters now. rocking out that is. and looking good

I feel alone. I need someone, please....I want(need) you with me....

So here we are once again, typing away at the keyboard. So far this all nighter has not been bad at all. Well, the apartment is going well. Tonight was filled with all sorts of surprises. We (that is Nikki, Mike, and I) all thought there was a gas leak from our water heater. I know it sure as hell smelled like it. Anyways, we tried to get ahold of ( Read more... )

With every moment I wonder what purpose there is....This whole thing is getting to me. That damn crack in the road, everytime I close my eyes I see it there. How am I suppose to deal with that ( Read more... )

Does it make me an asshole for trying to move on. I am just trying not to hurt anymore. Yet, I still feel like I might be doing the wrong thing. A part of me still wants to wait forever for her.

Who's the pimp? Well, it's me of course. Through many unsucessful atempts to find a perfect "someone" to help me, how should I word this, make things flow a bit more smoothly in my life, I think I may have found that "someone". Granted, this was not the night I thought it would be, but it was amazing nonetheless. This "someone" was far more ( Read more... )

GOOD FUCKING GOD MAN!!!!! I was just reading my past journal entries now. I am so fucking emo with this shit. This whole heartbreak thing is really getting to me. I might just as well buy a guitar and a lot of booze, sit down and fucking write songs about being lonely and heartbreak. How fucking depressing. Someone, Anyone.....cheer me the fuck up

Okay so here it goes. Well, today so far has been nothing but dealing with this ever lasting depression. I am done with the trying to get back with Kristalynn, but it is really straining on my emotional security. I want her back, and I can't have that. I totally accepted that last night. But for now it is just dealing with that repercussion. I am ( Read more... )