Comments | zombiebunny13: .....Man I am a fuck head....

zombiebunny13

.....Man I am a fuck head....

Apr 18, 2005 12:32

...despite what Zach says. I feel horrible. But my heart is a complete wreck right now and I am no good to him in this condition, no good to anybody. There are so many things I still need to work out with myself. So many unhealed wounds. I have made myself physically ill from crying so damn much. I hurt so bad. I need answers and that's what I am ( Read more... )

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monsterbride April 18 2005, 20:21:40 UTC

Please please tell me you didn't cheat on him. Or break his heart. Zach's my boy, and I'd hate to see him get hurt.

zombiebunny13 April 18 2005, 21:49:45 UTC

No, I DEFINATELY did not cheat on him. And he swore I didn't break his heart. He told me flat out he was fine as long as he was still my friend and he just wants to see me okay. He hates seeing me cry all the time. I was so afraid that I would hurt him. He's an awesome guy, I fucking dig him, but my hear and mind are all fucked up right now.

lostest_prophet April 19 2005, 21:47:00 UTC

i dont think anyone can hate you for whats going on, i'd bet this happens to almost everyone who's been in a rlationship

zombiebunny13 April 20 2005, 08:03:08 UTC

Thanks Woody.. Yeah, I know, but it's hard. I don't want to be the bad guy, you know? I know some people won't understand my feelings in this matter, but I have to trust my gut regardless of how they feel. I'm sick of being so damn sad all the time. I think I have eaten like twice in the past 3 days (like really eaten, all the slim jims I have had don't count) Relationships are a son-of-a-bitch sometimes. And love is as rewarding as it is painful.