this all seems so unreal. today has been the best to me, & I have Brett to thank. it's things like this that answer all of my questions without really saying a word. laying in bed all day just holding him & listening to his heartbeat. knowing that behind the flesh & ribcage, there's a heart there that beats partially for me. I won't take a breath ( Read more... )

i started praying again the other night ( Read more... )

So, yesterday was nice. I called City Hall about holding a reception at the park. Wow. Everything is falling together pretty well. E-mail me if you would like to come, It's on June 25th (i know, the dates keep changing) [ fantasybbbang@gmail.com ( Read more... )

I REALLY wish that Toni&Guy had stayed at juuust North Point. Instead of moving a store into TownCenter. Cause now, there's a lot of idiots running around screaming "OZMG!!!! I GOT MEH HAIR CUT @ TONI&GUY,I'M FRIGGIN' AWESUM NOW ( Read more... )

click here to buy brett & i marriage/wedding gifts.

almost everything on our registry is under $20 & if you're not sure what to get, you can always just buy a gift card.

brett is picking his toenails right now, i think i'm going to puke. ♥
& he just flicked one on the floor. :(

& i need a job.

it's only you, beautiful.
or i don't want anyone.
if i can choose, it's only you.
i'm scared. confused. & hurt. i've never had this many emotions running through my body. i can't explain anything. i feel weak, & empty. comparing this to the feeling i had saturday, doesn't make any sense. but nothing does right now. excuses are just excuses. i can ( Read more... )

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i have no motivation today. funerals are one of the hardest things for me. i left during the middle of it, it was to hard. i just couldn't handle anymore. thanks brett & will for comming with me though. that means a lot.

i feel weak, & not really here today. i apologize for anyone this causes problems with.

i love you brett dowis.

R.I.P. Butch

yesterday was how it always starts out ( Read more... )

i am beautiful. i am smart. i am loved. i am everything brett wants and needs. i can go to him whenever i need something. and i know he'll always try to comfort me when i need it.