No more Mr. Nice Guy

[zonama]

I am formally shedding the "Nice Guy" title. I am no longer worth it. I have taken advantage of someone elses pain to soothe my own. That is wrong. And in doing so I have destroyed two young peoples' relationship. I am so sorry. I could not have been so wrong. I don't know what to do. I can't give up though, I won't. But also, in doing what I am

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We are ALL wrong, don't blame yourself

[anonymous]

You have not ruined a relationship. You have brought the truth to the table,and I can only thank you for that. I'm doing a lot of thinking here, and it's not really any more coherent. But I do understand now that I am still young, and I need to be selfish. I need to take the time to do things that make me happy, without sacrificing for other people's convenience. I need to experience things while I can be responsible for myself. I need to stop waiting, for waiting's sake. I have to believe that whatever is meant to happen will happen, no matter what I do, or what mistakes I make. With that, I feel much better. Of course, I can make no actions of this without talking to certain people in person, so I am still waiting regardless. But I'm going to focus on myself this week.
I hope you're having a good time. I miss you a lot, more than I want to admit. But I would like to hear from you that no matter what happens, we can still be friends, because I enjoy you so much, and selfishly, I don't want to give you up. Thanks.

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