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I should have stayed in Graska, maybe I'll go back until classes start. There are still things that needed to be finished up, that honestly I should handle. I was just more concerned about getting back here... I see now sadly that that concern was unjustified.
FUCKING HELL! Why does he have to go off like that!? Doesn't he realize how much it hurts? I can't be the strong one all the time. Is it honestly too much to ask to have my family back and still have Hervey? Do I have to choose between them? It's not fair! I'm trying to protect him. I know he can take care of himself but at the same time I know that if he had stayed with me in Graska they would have torn him apart because of how he is.
Though I wouldn't change him for the world... there are just somethings that he needs to learn how to control for his own good. His rune mainly, I don't care if he can't control his temper that and his rune are two different things not one in the same. I'm just so afraid that he's going to get angry one of these times and seriously hurt someone... or himself.
Damn it. I love him. I just don't know what to do... and I can't tell him what to do either. Maybe we weren't meant to be together.
FUCKING HELL! Why does he have to go off like that!? Doesn't he realize how much it hurts? I can't be the strong one all the time. Is it honestly too much to ask to have my family back and still have Hervey? Do I have to choose between them? It's not fair! I'm trying to protect him. I know he can take care of himself but at the same time I know that if he had stayed with me in Graska they would have torn him apart because of how he is.
Though I wouldn't change him for the world... there are just somethings that he needs to learn how to control for his own good. His rune mainly, I don't care if he can't control his temper that and his rune are two different things not one in the same. I'm just so afraid that he's going to get angry one of these times and seriously hurt someone... or himself.
Damn it. I love him. I just don't know what to do... and I can't tell him what to do either. Maybe we weren't meant to be together.