Regrets (english version)
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i finished it :D
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Title: Regrets
Author: zooey_carter
Pairing: Cara
Rating: General
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: Sadly, LoTS does not belong to me L
Summary: Cara’s thoughts during her almost confession in 2x03 Broken
As Miss Cranton ... or Mistress Nathair, whatever her name was, confessed to Kahlan that her Mord’Sith sisters and her forced me to believe a lie, I was starting to understand what she was saying. I’ve made a mistake. All my life has been lies and mistakes. Father didn’t sell us, nor my sister or I, and I murdered him. I killed him. I earned a thousand times what it is was going to happen to me. I deserve to suffer and die.
‘’Confess me’’ I whispered, with tears in my eyes.
Kahlan turned towards me, surprised. I looked up and locked my green eyes wth her blues ones.
‘’ I deserve it.’’ My voice was shaking.
Without hesitation, the Mother Confessor took me the throat and prepared herself to unleash her power on me, like she did to Mistress Nathair a few seconds ago. A single tear rolled down my cheek, the first in years.
‘’What are you waiting for ?’’ screamed a voice in my head. All I wanted was to finish it once and for all. I wanted to fall on the ground screaming in pain like the other woman next to me. Suffering and dying for all eternity in the Underworld, to remind me the unforgivable deed that I had done. To remind me what my loved ones suffered because of me.
Suddenly Kahlan’s face lit up with comprehension. She removed her hand. Took off her confessor’s hood, which was covering her long brown hair and broke the eye contact between us. She turned towards the crowd who was eager to find out what she had to say.
‘’ I have looked into this woman’s eyes and I see now that she is truly remorseful.’’
Angry murmurs began to rise from the crowd. Still in shock, i was unable to cpmrehend her words. She was letting me lie... after all I had done to her, even after i killed Dennee her little sister. She could have sent me rotting on the other side and be rid of me but she chose to spare me.
‘’Her life was take from her as a child’’ said the woman and with her back turned to me she said ‘’I will not take it from her again.’’
* * * * *
As I was getting out of the house where I grew up as a child and had promised to my sister that we would meet again, I saw that Richard, Kahlan, the wisard and the kid were waiting for me. To my surprise, the Mother Confessor met me halfway on the trail and our eyes made contact again.
‘’Why are you here ?’’ I asked her.
‘’I can never forgive you for what you did to my sister but if anything ever happens to me, the Seeker will need protection.’’
My eyes slid along her body and back to her face while I was considering what she said. We will never be friends and she will never trust me, at leats not now but if Richard’s life was in danger and she couldn’t do anything, then it would be my responsibility to protect him. In this case she did not doubt me. I swore to protect Lors Rahl with my own life and a Mord’Sith never fails her word.
She turned away and returned with the others quietly inviting me to join them. I gave my sister’s house a last look then followed her, readjusted the pack on my back. It contained some of the things I didn’t want to wear anymore. If I wanted to be redeemed I had to look forward.
The End