What to do?
My current dilemma:
1. I currently believe that I do not have right psychopharmacological meds. (400mg of bupropion for depression, 30mg Adderal for ADD)
2. I missed my appointment with my psychopharmacologist yesterday morning.
3. I really don't like or particularly trust this doctor, and I think 1 and 2 are directly related to this fact.
I spoke with my therapist this morning about all of this, and she agreed that I needed to do something about this, both in the getting different meds and getting a different doctor. She stressed that talking to my current doctor was the way I was supposed to handle this, but there were ways I could go over her head if this was really a problem.
I just got in touch with my doctor's office and with her directly (she isn't in the office today). She told me to call them and book me for the end of the day tomorrow. This eats into her personal time (a fact she reminded me of), and she said that she's always having trouble with people missing appointments and wanting to see her right away, and how she'd have no free time if she accommodated them. These are both true, and basically fair.
In the brief time I spoke with her, I mentioned that I thought I needed to change my meds and that I felt she wasn't the right person for me to be working with. She was adamant that we needed to speak tomorrow, and that I should call the office to arrange this.
Anyway, Of course, the folks at the office aren't allowed to schedule that sort of thing on my say so; she has to tell them. After a bit of discussion, the person I was speaking to said that she'd try to get in touch with my doctor to confirm the appointment and give me a call back when she had. I suppose this is what my doctor intended to have happen; never the less it's not what she said. This sort of fecklessness is part of the problem I have with her. I also asked the person there if there was anyone else I could talk to about changing my doctor; she said that I needed to speak with my current doctor.
Anyway, I haven't heard back from the office.
1. I don't want to wait until tomorrow evening. (I'm prepared to accept that this is not reasonable.)
2. I really don't want to have to deal with my doctor tomorrow. (Although, provided I actually do see her, I doubt she'll screw up the next step. It's pretty obvious: I start taking an SSRI, and see how it works.)
3. I'm not actually certain that I'm *going* to see my doctor tomorrow.
I'm afraid to stop pushing on this, in part because I feel like the momentum I have right now is the only thing carrying me through. I'm afraid I'm going to loose the sense of urgency that I currently have.
I really don't think this is an emergency. I don't want to kill myself, and frankly that just isn't the mode my depression takes. I do catatonic.
Should I be doing something else? Am I being neurotic about this? Should I just chill and wait for the office to call me back?
1. I currently believe that I do not have right psychopharmacological meds. (400mg of bupropion for depression, 30mg Adderal for ADD)
2. I missed my appointment with my psychopharmacologist yesterday morning.
3. I really don't like or particularly trust this doctor, and I think 1 and 2 are directly related to this fact.
I spoke with my therapist this morning about all of this, and she agreed that I needed to do something about this, both in the getting different meds and getting a different doctor. She stressed that talking to my current doctor was the way I was supposed to handle this, but there were ways I could go over her head if this was really a problem.
I just got in touch with my doctor's office and with her directly (she isn't in the office today). She told me to call them and book me for the end of the day tomorrow. This eats into her personal time (a fact she reminded me of), and she said that she's always having trouble with people missing appointments and wanting to see her right away, and how she'd have no free time if she accommodated them. These are both true, and basically fair.
In the brief time I spoke with her, I mentioned that I thought I needed to change my meds and that I felt she wasn't the right person for me to be working with. She was adamant that we needed to speak tomorrow, and that I should call the office to arrange this.
Anyway, Of course, the folks at the office aren't allowed to schedule that sort of thing on my say so; she has to tell them. After a bit of discussion, the person I was speaking to said that she'd try to get in touch with my doctor to confirm the appointment and give me a call back when she had. I suppose this is what my doctor intended to have happen; never the less it's not what she said. This sort of fecklessness is part of the problem I have with her. I also asked the person there if there was anyone else I could talk to about changing my doctor; she said that I needed to speak with my current doctor.
Anyway, I haven't heard back from the office.
1. I don't want to wait until tomorrow evening. (I'm prepared to accept that this is not reasonable.)
2. I really don't want to have to deal with my doctor tomorrow. (Although, provided I actually do see her, I doubt she'll screw up the next step. It's pretty obvious: I start taking an SSRI, and see how it works.)
3. I'm not actually certain that I'm *going* to see my doctor tomorrow.
I'm afraid to stop pushing on this, in part because I feel like the momentum I have right now is the only thing carrying me through. I'm afraid I'm going to loose the sense of urgency that I currently have.
I really don't think this is an emergency. I don't want to kill myself, and frankly that just isn't the mode my depression takes. I do catatonic.
Should I be doing something else? Am I being neurotic about this? Should I just chill and wait for the office to call me back?