i'm confused!
I know it's crazy but now I find the notion of working in Japan to be much more entertaining than the opposite! I surely have not yet forgotten the hardship, which almost led me to a nervous breakdown, psychologically caused by the fears I created in my own little brain during the internship last summer. Sure, during the first few days of internship I vowed to leave this country right after graduation but when the end of the internship was nearing the vow weakened.
This country offers me with good internet connection and access which in turn leads me to the realm of anime. I know I sound really stupid right now, but hey, it's the truth! If I were to go back to my home country, I'd have to let go of all the comforts I'm currently enjoying. There's a pay for everything and no choice leaves me with only merits. Surely working in my home country means that I can spend more time with my family (jam-packed traffic, little to no access and freedom to read / watch / see / hear BL, anime and Vocaloid) and start building career right away!
Guess I need to ask more seniors to give me one alternative that can solve everything, putting Me - Family - Anime in a win-win solution where everyone is happy! I'm now considering taking a job in Singapore. That country's bound to have better internet connection and while I'm near my family I'm not next to them 24/7, which means freedom!
I KNOW RIGHT. I'M SO STUPID.
How could I say that about the people I've loved the most?!
And isn't this the perfect chance for me to cleanse myself from BL porn!? But! I'm not ready to be separated from Taibani and K fandoms YET!!!!!!!!!!!
Help me, help me decide God!!