hmm...I don't really have much to write. I'm kind of caught in limbo right now. I can't really tell in which direction I'm heading, but I know that for the time being I am confined in this confusion. I am questioning everything now : every move, every action, every word. I can't tell the difference between what is real and what is just being acted ( Read more... )

Another failed attempt...I'm utterly disappointed.

I don't know what to do. I feel so lost. I can't believe I've come to call this reality. It pisses me off. I used to be just depressed, but now I'm pissed off. How could I ever let someone treat me like this? I usually don't take shit from anybody, so why should I take his? FUCK! You try to be good to people and they just fuckin walk all over you ( Read more... )

It hurts...not because of what he does to me, but because people can see it and point it out to me. I can see in their eyes that they're embarrassed for me. They ask me why I put up with it. Why do I put up with it ( Read more... )

I'm freakin tired! I don't know why...but I feel so exhausted. Not to worry, though, cause I will be fuckin ready to party tomorrow. ;) I just hope I'm not the only one dancing (that would feel awkward). But, yeah...Sal will be playing lots of Hawaiian music (aka Razed in Black), so that should be good. He's mixing in a lot of industrial, I think ( Read more... )

Haven't been online these past couple of days. So, guess where the hell I've been? ....TJ! We just like took off and left. It was pretty cool; I had never been there before. I had the opportunity to drink as much as I fuckin wanted! Although, I did get carded at this one restaurant we went to, which totally fuckin shocked me. Do I look younger than ( Read more... )

I couldn't bring myself to telling Sal all of the things I wanted to say. I don't know what happened. I just couldn't find the courage to tell him some of the things I wanted to tell him. Nonetheless, I feel like I got what I needed to hear...or at least some of it. Sal has a way of making me forget everything and just live in the moment. I had ( Read more... )

I'm utterly depressed at the moment. When I get like this, I tend to have a one-track mind. Of course, these feelings are purely situational. Unfortunately, there's nothing I can do to fix this situation. I can only try so hard. There's only so much I can say. But it results that this is not in my hands...it's in the hands of someone who doesn't ( Read more... )

How do you ever really know if you can trust someone? I mean, they say you can trust them, but can you really? It's almost like questioning the existence of a god. You can believe that god exists, but you never really know if he/she really does. Of course, you can believe that god doesn't exist, and you could be totally wrong ( Read more... )

I saw Dodgeball last night. It was pretty funny. Who knew dodgeball could be such a big thing, eh ( Read more... )