About my decion...

[zuzsanna]

Okay I am going to clear up some things pertaining to why I deleted my account from the Nashville Goth board. No, i wasn't running away from a fight. I said all I wanted to say and things just kept being taken the wrong way or was bashed so insead of saying things I knew I would regret in the long run I chose to leave. It was one of those thing

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[heartsease]

I just posted something. For what it's worth, you may want to read it. T is really upset that you left, as am I. I hope that this bridge isn't one of the burning ones, but I do understand if you need to go, for whatever reason. And you can call of you want to talk about any of this crap. I'm fairly calm considering all the different directions my head is in. I don't hate anyone involved, but I'm really frustrated.

[zuzsanna]

No, it wasn't my intent to burn bridges. I posted that thinking that would be the way others would think of me. Matt is the one that intend on spending the rest of my life with and that was something I never thought I would find again so you have to understand why I got so upset. It stressed me and that is one thing I do not need with my MS which was another reason I pulled myself off the board. I really don't think I was making things personal and if someone thought it that way, then I am sorry, it wasn't my intent at all. It was a thread that even though it wasn't started by us, it turned ugly and there are many parties to blame including myself so once again I apologize and with the respect I have for both you and Travis I decided to just take myself out before I would say some things that I know i would have regretted.

[heartsease]

Emotions are high on this subject and I understand why they are all the way around. Trust me when I say that you are still very much loved by all parties involved, even the ones who have gotten a little edgy. You've known Travis long enough to know how he reacts when he has reached a certain point. I just have to stand back, and with some of this stuff I understand his anger. He's being criticized for not playing exactly what he does play and he does play requests, ask for feedback, etc. Both of us are a little sensitive about being accused of not accepting other views because of things that have happened on the boards for the last few years. We are always accused of "pretending everything is perfect" when either of us disagrees with anyone and are apparently paragons of the status quo, and that's just not true. I'm glad I made the decision not to post in that thread

[zuzsanna]

But see, no one personally criticized him or at least that what I think. We've said the few times we had been there what we heard and it did get to the point of questioning why I was there in the first place. I underestand why emotions run high on this subject. For some, music and their scene is very passionate thing but critism about a persons character was never brought up. I've sent a message to both Jimmy and Ben apologizing if they took anything that was said by us wrong, but that was never the intent and we are sorry if Travis took something wrong as well.

[isabell564]

I'm sorry you're having conflict Tara! Let us know if we can do anything to help! I'm not certain what thread you're talking about or what the politics are involving, but I pray it's not anything we've said! I think I may know what's going on though. Be proud of yourself for being a strong woman unafraid to defend her man. Some of the younger "gothic" board members lack class, intellectual mentality and manners. It's not the good old days at the old Underground for any of us elders anymore. One day old school class, intellect, true faith and aggression will evolve back around once more. Until then, just be strong and proud of being the class acts that both you and your beloved Matt are. We don't blame you for wanting to stay home with your beautiful and loving family until the day class acts in our subculture rule in hiearchy once more. Just be yourself dear. We take you just as you are. Matt too. Most of all you take each other just as you are. You know who your real friends are in times like these. Valuable life

[zuzsanna]

Thanks D. :) That means alot.

[lilitheternal]

Jonathan and I send a big hug through the Internet :)
If you need anything, just call.

Love,

Jonathan/Natasha

[zuzsanna]

Well you understand that Tara + Stress = really bad attack and I just had to step back before it happened.

A huge hug to you both back and hopefully soon we can get together. Ashe turns 10 tomorrow so this weekend is out but I think you can understand why.

Love you and thank you for our friendship.

[denaturedlunacy]

Happy Birthday to Ashe!

I don't know how much a part of the goth scene I am, but I love you and Matt to death. I wish I got to see you more.

[zuzsanna]

Awe thanks... :)

[ravendrexn]

You and David were my friends long before I was a part of the scene, and you two will always remain my friends. We'll have to do more dinners like the one at Sitar. Next time, you guys pick the place. Just somewhere in the middle between us ;)

[thegruftie]

I hope you did not take my posts seriously.

[zuzsanna]

Oh not at all. :)

[ravendrexn]

You? Never ;)

[thegruftie]

HEY!

OK, so you are right.