if your mind tells you youre ready but your heart tells you that you arent, which are you supposed to listen to?

ive put myself through my version of such an exciting program. i figured out why i was so not wanting to organize my room.... because of he whos name i do not say being plastered all over it. ive started to organize my room.... i was going through some really rough days, and i think alot of it had to do with the hormones i was taking... so i ( Read more... )

so i skipped work yesterday... and left at 12 today. im going crazy. literally.
i wish it was already a year from now. :-/

This life, this indulgence of all that is minor ... why do i hold onto things with little meaning. I mean i give all of myself to things that dont deserve my attention in any shape or form. Why do i force myself to linger in emotions that make me unhappy. I confess there are feelings brought on by meaningless icons that capture the moment and ( Read more... )

still cant seem to just let him gooooooo

how long will take before i commit myself to the mental ward of some ghetto hospital so i can get murdered by some toilet paper eating convict who plead mentally unstable to get out of a life sentence for toturing, mutilating, and condemning lost souls to the depths of hell?

lets start counting...

i should be sleeping like a baby, happy, and relieved. but here i am, yet again, another sleepless night. my thoughts run wild through my head when i close my eyes. my heart races, when i take a deep breath, and body shivers when i think of what i want. my reaction is so intense, because i know what i want is only going to hurt me. what i need, is ( Read more... )

i dont ever want to see or talk to him again.

i unblocked him. its another step. so is learning from his "friend" that hes talking to Crystal, who last i knew had a boyfriend. so much for those morals of his.

im told hes over me. three years are over in less than two months.

im not sure how to feel about this.