it hurts to go through old journal entries and read about the conversations between josh and i. i still love him so much. we're not talking right now and i guess it's for the best. until we can both grow up and learn to trust each other. or something. i don't know. and i know i'm like such a walking contradiction because of my last entry. but... ( Read more... )

it's christmas time again. :) which means i want to send christmas cards to all of you! :) if you want one leave your address in a comment [i'll screen them] and i'll be sending you one soon :D

I'm someone's inspiration? That's fuckin scary. LOL my brothers ex-girlfriend is adorable. But I am no one to look up to -_-

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i miss him so much. his hugs and kisses. and his cuddles. the way he'd massage me without me having to ask. i miss that he'd let me wrap my arms up in his jacket when i didn't have one and it was 40 degrees outside. i miss laying in bed next to him playing with his hair while he slept. i miss that when we couldn't be with each other he'd call me ( Read more... )

i need some time with my uncle hammon. being around him always cheers me up. even though he gives me talks every time i see him. it's because he loves me and wants to see me do good. but i like that i'm able to get everything off my chest. he understands me. i'm excited for thanksgiving weekend. i really need this, this whole josh deal has been ( Read more... )

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i see people with dreadies walking down the street and i get so jealous.
i miss walking out of the house with that kind of confidence.

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