The GED test is such a joke. haha ( Read more... )

I keep having these horrible, horrible dreams. I'm screaming and crying out to one of my dearest friends, and they scream and me and betray me. I keep finding out how they've lied to me. And I wake up and everything I go back to sleep it happens again. But when I wake up, I don't feel that sigh of refief. Wow, and it's raining and I can't go back ( Read more... )

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I was at that point, spending 20 hours a day laying around, waiting for the strength to get up and pull the trigger one last time. Thinking HE is the only one, the only voice that can give me hope. The cycles of memories, laying in the back of the truck screaming. Calling all of you, hoping, that the phone on the other end would be answered by one ( Read more... )

Mmm... SAT's on saturday! woo hoo. lol Well at least I'll be in good company (Jesse and CC) Didn't do horrible last time ... 1180 , but have to do the damn new SAT's ( Read more... )

Two AM console my heart, streaking, swinging, purple blanket uncover , drive threw stealing, I'd like a cheese burger without cheese, vodka broken up party stealing, wanna see my boobs, school skipping, einstein bagel eatting, fucking amazing birthday party thrower, parents are out of town, sneaking out, car crashing, st. pete driving, pick up my ( Read more... )

Somewhere between the drive and the conversations ... the thoughts ... and points of view... I feel a sense of clarity. One that well, I really haven't felt in a long while. Although, the spirits of happiness are a wonderful thing , I think it was my minds way of surpressing the thoughts constantly through. Orlando was amazing, as always. I went ( Read more... )

Going to stay with the wonderful Matt in Orlando for a while! I leave tomorrow, oh so very excited!!!

So I made the horrible mistake, of going out to dinner with an old friend. It brought back all the feelings of where I used to be, and the contemplation that althought I'm trying so hard to seperate myself ... in that seperation, nothing productive has come. I still have the attitude to dwell , and sit in my room 24/7 to think numb myself away ( Read more... )

i feel really ... HAPPY! ( I can't remember the last time I said that, not on anything!)