I thought I could take it. The park, the house, everything was fine... I was happy and cheery ... I thought I could lie right to his face, so it would be okay for him to leave. He was doing the normal quite, I'm fucked up, say one wrong thing and I'll blow up act. So I played around with Henry and went along everything being okay. Still, no real ( Read more... )

Can anyone help me do a new background?? : ) It would be most apperciated.

I feel like a really big jerk. : / I don't cause drama in my own group of friends anymore, but I inadvertantly do in others. I didn't mean to make other people feel like they were at all the cause in some blown up (of course by me ) problem. I'm sorry ( Read more... )

If you love something, love it so so much , is the right thing to let it go? The constant contradiction between taking care of yourself and giving to others. I haven't quite found that balance. Not just in the ever familar battle of Mr. Ganster, but with everything. With knowing what can happen when your friends are making all of the mistakes you ( Read more... )

Deleted the myspace. Again. After a good cry, I let go of everything holding me back. Goodbye drama, Donny Ganster, Valerie ( that whole group) , heartache, and well shooting for no more late nights. : )


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When do you decide is enough is enough? When are you supposed to be able to tell if his words are sincere? I know, I know so well that this is just a game , and in reality this is just a safety for him. A reasurance that someone is still thinking and worrying about him. It took a wonderful girl to get that through my head ... but I don't know that ( Read more... )

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_For the week at heart ( Read more... )