The death of this journal follows the death of what represented the day this journal was named after. It is over ( Read more... )

my days in rome are coming to an end and the adventure in turin is just about to begin. i have waited too long for this.

i am home.
and i wont leave.

this is me not wishing you happy birthday.
this is me remembering how we got to know each other a few days after your 19th birthday.
this is me saying goodbye.
its only right that i do it today.

Last night I got taken out by 2 strangers I have just met, and realized that it has been so long since I have hung out with real genuine people. We sat at the piazza and drank beer and talked about life ( Read more... )

I am severely hurting. I have not felt hurt this bad in a long time. The kind of hurt that I need to bleed, the kind of hurt I need to punch walls. The kind of hurt I feel my insides perishing. My aunt took me shopping today. She saw me and she was like.. something isnt right. No kidding. Try getting your heart broken ( Read more... )

Monday I am leaving for up North and will only be back in Rome for September ( Read more... )

Gray, quiet and tired and mean
Picking at a worried seam
Itry to make you mad at me over the phone.
Red eyes and fire and signs
I'm taken by a nursery rhyme
I want to make a ray of sunshine and never leave home

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying ( Read more... )

I have just read my whole journal and I have come to the conclusion that I am just a pathetic piece of space. And that I was not always like this. And this is definately not who I want to be. I am so much better than that. And if you really knew me, you would know that because you would know my heart and my soul and the purity of it. And not the ( Read more... )

Because you cannot know how it may hurt.
Because you will not know.
Because I am better than this.
Because I have come a long way and I will not go back to that dark corner.
I will not let you consume me dear anger, dear rage, dear hurt.
I will not let you consume.

Dear you ( Read more... )