I figured something out about eating disorders. I was on a community ( ana_fasts ) and someone commented about the majority of people on these ED communities. I commented back to say that the reason she didn't understand is that SHE had an eating disorder, whereas most of us don't. What I meant, actually, is that this can be an 'extreme diet' and nothing ( Read more... )

i've decided to:
1. grow up
2. take some responsibility.
3. grow a pair
4. get thin

God is the best alarm clock. I woke up at about 6:45, going fine. I probably only got like 4 whole hours of sleep. Oh well. Anyways... I need some cocaine. Until then... _realthin and nicotine.

my estrangement from God, or how I stopped worrying and got the devil to stop working against me...
( Eating Disorder/I'm better/not really/I'm Crazy/Kill me NOW )

i decided to give up my eating disorder--to God--for good. and it's been working for the most part.

i am updating just to tell you guys that. i hope you're all doing well....

i'm really tired and lonely right now, and i feel like things will never be okay, in a way, but whatever.

ttyl.

why can't i throw up?
why can't i study?
why can't i cure my best friend's schizophrenia?
why can't i be beautiful?

( Another Eating Disordered Entry )

( Another Eating Disordered Entry/Depression Rant )

time is not on my side ( Read more... )

I'm turning 21 and heading down to NYC. I need some good clubs for four hott bitches to go to. Where to shopp and what to do for three days while i'm De-RUNK! :D

peace

I love you God!