I wish we all realized what a cyclical level we function on. I mean our society sees things as so linearly, and when you do that, there is only up and down, and level I guess. We have such two dimensional mindsets. Why? And why does everything have to be a fucking binary too? Why can't it just be? I guess we have a need to categorize. I mean ( Read more... )

The words will never be enough and all human connections are flawed. That's what makes them so beautiful ( Read more... )

Blarghhh, Christmas is stressful. Honestly, I mean it's great and all I guess, but I really just want it to be over so I can be lazy and slack off. And cause traffic SUCKSSS ( Read more... )

There seems to be an ongoing nostalgic theme in my mind these days ( Read more... )

Let me first say that I just got hit by a caffeine high so forgive the oddballness... no actually just embrace it ( Read more... )

I meant to do a paper tonight. I spent all night finishing a book said paper would be on. And I guess I could still do it but I'm just dead. I'm trying to convince myself I'll get up early tomorrow and do it but I'm not going to lie to myself like that. I mean I guess I might. Maybe I can do one at another point in time, I dunno if this my ( Read more... )

Life is good.
A work in progress.
But good.
Because it's progressing.

I think I might finally be ready to explore that grey area where illusion meets reality. Oddly enough it was the embodiment of everything I've been running away from, everything I'd rejected as not a part of me, that's letting me see that. I think. I'm terrified - that I can't really do it, that all my imperfection will weigh me down, that the ( Read more... )

I think I like who I am, flaws and all.

In other news, my last year of undergrad starts tomorrow.

Why do I do these stupid things like drink coffee at five in the evening, which of course keeps me up all night? I dunno.

I don't even really have the energy to be articulate right now.

But I know I will die in this puddle of stagnation I've sunk myself into.
And I don't know what to fucking do about it.