Looking at my May Showers post, I've come a really long way in 5 months. So much has happened, and I seriously don't even know where to begin, but all I know is that my heart has been changed for the better. I sent this e-mail out to my intentional community group, but to preserve anonymity I'm going to just post fake names. This time period is a ( Read more... )

My entire being revolves around my soul and spiritual state.

This explains everything.

All this pain
I wonder if I'll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change
At all

All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found?
Could a garden come up from this ground
At all?

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from ( Read more... )

It's happening again. Always around this time of year. Losing control of emotions. Losing emotions. Self-destructive behavior. Why does it always happen now? Damn my high F on the Meyers-Brigg. Why do I have this great need to feel? At least my body is becoming more fit and better-looking because of it ( Read more... )

The idea of success has become a blurry concept in my mind. Growing up in a Chinese household where my parents loved to talk about who got into Harvard or Yale or Berkeley and what they ended up doing with their life and how successful they were inevitably made me feel compared to those my parents praised. Yet my parents would also always say that ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think best when praying. Most of the time I know it's rude to God to slowly trail away in a tangential thought while praying for someone, but there are times when my trailing thoughts are God's revelations to me. Today's was one of them. Here's what I realized:

I don't want to leave my legacy behind.

Something I felt was stressed very ( Read more... )

We're having an assignment on writing collages in UWP101. It's a good class. People at Davis should take it with John Boe. Good teacher. Don't call him professor, because he'll hate you for it. He might even eat you. Hmm... I kind of want to eat Amy's brownies right now.

Ideas link but sentences don't. That's the idea of a collage. You don't have to ( Read more... )

When I wake up sometimes it feels like my body didn't get the message. I step out of bed and realize my feet have touched the floor, but my mind is still in dreamland. Ever have that happen to you ( Read more... )

Experiencing God’s Dream for your Marriage

Andrew, Paul, Ryan, and Henry are the only constant posters amongst my LJ friends now.  Constancy is nice.

I'm reading this book called The Me I Want to Be by John Ortberg--who I assumed to be a popular Christian writer/pastor, but apparently isn't here in Davis--and it's the first book I've enjoyed and wanted to continue reading and finish reading ( Read more... )